MISSOURI!!

It has been forever since I have posted a new post!!! Just read my last one to try to remember.. I have already started my second internship with 4th grade which just made me even more unsure what I want! I still have some time so I'm not freaking out about it. I still don't know about colleges either its getting to crunch time! uh oh..

I got my patriarchal blessing on the 15th that was good!! I can't wait til I get it in the mail so I can read it. You can't really catch everything as he's saying it. I caught some good stuff though ;).

Then, tuesday I left with my dad, aunt & uncle and their two kids and my grandma we're in Missouri now. 13 hour drive. It could've been worse though so I'm not complaining :)

On thanksgiving we ate and everything and then at 4 when to Silver Dollar City that's in Branson. We went last year I like it. They have some pretty cool stuff there and good food :D. I got some cute jewelry from there. I got this potato stuff though that everyone said was good I didn't like it.. It was potatoes and sweet potatoes mixed.. It made it too sweet and weird.

Today we went to Bass Pro Shops. The main one is here and its huge! I got some clothes from there. Wasn't so interested in the hunting part of it though.. My dad likes that part of it. We kind of split up and he was like freaking cause he didn't see me the whole time we were there til we met up again :) There is usually a ton of people but it was pretty bad today! That would be why I don't go shopping on black friday cause theres a million people out! I like shopping in moderation. Under 3 hours at a time!

Hmm. what else? I'm heading back to Ohio saturday during the night some time I think.. Don't really want to go back.. I like it out here. My aunt was telling me about a college that's out here College of the Ozark's or something like that. You work there so then you don't have debt or anything which is pretty cool! Plus no drinking or smoking etc. on the campus so another plus :) I might check that out. It's only like 40 minutes from my family in Missouri. I could still be away from home but close to some family at the same time.

Well nothing new has really happened lately.. Last Saturday I took my ACT. That was super fun!!!! Just anxious to see how I did! I have to wait 5-8 weeks. So I guess I’ll see then. My first internship is over next week. I can’t believe it’s been 5 weeks already!! This year has gone by so fast. I taught my lesson today. I have to teach one at each internship. For this one we went on a nature walk and they had to think about their 5 senses while we were on it. Then we made a web and they had to write in their journals. I think I should’ve written complete sentences in the web though because they were having some problems making the words I gave them into sentences.. It took a lot longer than I expected too. It didn’t go bad though. I pretty much know I don’t want to teach that young though hah. I’m doing 4th grade next and I think that will be cool. I know a lot of the kids because I helped some of their specials last year. Plus they’re older and I don’t think I want to teach below 4th grade which is good because there’s a teaching license for 4th-9th grade which is what I’m thinking about now. There is also one that’s 7th-12th but I don’t know if I want to teach high school or not.. Ha still not sure. I still have this year to think about it though, so that’s good! I just totally don’t feel like a senior at all and I definitely don’t feel like I’m about to be graduating and going off to college ahhH! Soo much to think about. That’s pretty much all that’s new though :)

First Internship

Well, I started my internships last wednesday. It's been really good and I enjoy it! I helped out in the elementary last year and went down to 3rd grade. I'm doing 1st grade now. They're really cute and everything but maybe a little too young for me. I did like the 3rd grade though they're a little older and follow directions better and everything like that. My next internship is in the 4th grade I found out about the teacher today and the teacher I'm with now said she's a good teacher. So, that's good :) She brings her daughter to Grand Valley and can choose the teachers she's gonna have in elementary. I was like well you're lucky! My teacher for Teacher Academy came in today and we talked for a little bit. Then the class was writing in their journals so she said she'd let me get back to helping them. So, then she starting talking with the teacher I'm interning with it was pretty awkward.. Ha. So, once they were done talking my teacher from the JVS left and when I was walked past her I said well you guys talking is pretty weird! She laughed and said I know! Then she said they weren't talking about anything bad. Which I'm hoping she was telling the truth :D

It's just like unreal that I'm a senior this year! It doesn't even feel like I am! This year has been going by pretty fast surprisingly! Some days seem like they're going by slow, but in the long run it has gone by really fast. Going down to the elementary is the highlight to my day :) So, it's made some days better :) It was so cute today though because I walk through the cafeteria to get to the class I'm going to. & some kids from the class I'm in waved at me and then kids I didn't even know were waving at me. Ha I was like someone famous just walking by them waving at everyone :D

I'm just still not quite sure which grade I want to do yet. I'll figure that out by the end of the year though.. Then I still I have to decide college and everything hmm. I'm just gonna miss all the kids I meet and everything. I'm already thinking about that part.. :( Oh, another fear I talked about today is that my first class I have when I become a teacher will be like too much to handle or something.. Makes me a little nervous. I guess it's somewhat similar to other jobs because you may not get a long with people at your job but this is still different because I'll be the one in charge and have to find a way to make everything work. Ha, I'm content now with working with somebody not so much by myself all the time. I think once you've been a teacher for a couple years it's easier because you have your lessons figured out and everything, but I'm gonna have to figure all that stuff out. I should focus on the good though, so I'm gonna keep that in mind :)

Good day ;)

Today was pretty good :D I got to meet the first teacher that I'm going to be interning with. Plus the class sortof they just said hi to me. The teacher seemed nice though and now I'm really excited! Next wednesday is the first day! I'll have 11:30-12:40 then have to go down there but then I have to stay til 3:25.. Oh well atleast I'll get all my work done before I go home! I saw my choir teacher that switched this year to do elementary til she retires. I couldn't take choir this year anyway.. Interms go out this week I'm not getting any haa :D In english we have this fairy tale project which I'm interested to see how that goes. We're doing rumplestiltskin or however its spelled.. I never heard of it until now when we have to act it out.. Hopefully that goes well.. My last day at work is this saturday.. I wish I didn't even have to go then but I owe my manager. It's just super slow lately and I'd like to get another job I just really don't have the time if I want to get school done.. Plus with me not really knowing whats in store for the rest of the year and internships and everything. Some will be at a little different time but should be over at 3:25.. Oh well my dad said I didn't need a job now he'll see haa. I'll be glad to be able to do whatever on the weekends now! It was horrible just having to work all weekend!

Oh haa I just remembered. I'm at my moms now and she always liked to borrow my clothes which I didn't like so much and she wore one pair and at work she got a hole in them. Then we were just talking about what it looks like when she sews a hole and that its only been when she's wearing my pants that she cuts her leg with a razor knife (not bad) Hahaha so I told her that my pants wanted my legs back :D thought it was funny hehe

Stressed!!

Well it's pretty ironic that I've been stressing out lately and then in 2 classes we were talking about it. I was reading all the symptoms and looked at my friend jokingly and was like hey I think theres a good chance I'm stressed! Only part is to change it which isn't very easy.. I get home and just don't feel like doing all the work I have. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I did choose teacher academy on the spur of the moment, but want to do it because I need to figure out what I want to do. Its getting overwhelming all the work in there plus the other classes I'm taking. I'm totally not disciplined because I'm totally not used this to this much work. Everyone says that thats how college is, but I'm not in college yet.. Guess I just need to get used to it and suck it up.
Today was fun. Went to my aunts and hung out there. Then went to a cook off. There were 4 groups we had to make a dessert pizza and a regular pizza. Then make up a team name & a name for the pizzas it was fun! We were the bakin' babes ;) ha. Both of our pizzas were pretty good! We didn't win though.. :( Oh well I don't really care anyway. The dough we used is totally not like Domino's hah I wasn't very successful.. I was telling everyone I should have brought dough in, but they said it was cheating haha. Today was good though cause I got to see some people that I haven't seen in a while! Ha like Sister Allen!!! So, we had to get a picture of course :D

I'm getting ready to go to sleep I'm really tired! Going to church tomorrow then have 2 essay's to write and some other homework. Plus my talk is next sunday have to make it good :D Temple trip is next sunday too. There is a college fair at Lakeland sunday at noon. I might go not sure I'd have to leave church way early.

Beginning of School

Well school started on tuesday. And not to my surprise I couldn't really sleep monday night.. so I was a little tired.. :) School went good it was the usual first day. I already knew all the teachers I had and had them before. My schedule changed since I was taking teacher academy at the JVS. I was only able to take 5 classes to get there on time. Which made it so I couldn't take Trig and had to take Algebra II over again. I guess I don't really care about that that much because I know I totally slacked last year. So hopefully I learned from that :D I also wasn't able to take french II because it was only later in the day. So I took two years of spanish and one of french.. Besides that the first day at Grand Valley went pretty smoothly.

So now my new schedule is:

Personal Development/Resource management

English Lit Com

Psychology/Sociology

Algebra II

Am Govt/Economics

After that I headed to the Jvs. I was somewhat nervous about that because I didn't know what to expect or anyone that would be there. Now there are 8 people in our class. Our teacher is really nice and this is going to be her last year. So, now we're meeting at the JVS everyday until september 30th and then only on mondays and tuesdays for the rest of the year. Wednesday to friday we're doing internships at our schools. We have 6 total and they're about 5 weeks each or so and you have to plan a lesson for each. I already have some experience from last year going down to help the 3rd graders so I'm not too worried about that.

I've been undecided as to what I wanted to do and then when my teacher called me it just felt right so here I am! It kindof brought me down that my friend started laughing and saying I could never be a teacher. (well I was laughing too) She said that I have no patience and I would punch a kid and get fired. Haha well I totally don't think its that extreme!! I have to give myself props I've never punched anybody before and I definitely wouldn't do it to a kid! Everyone has their goals to accomplish and mine has always been to have more patience so what better way to do that? Plus I'm usually good at hiding it and not freaking out :) I haven't decided what grade or class or anything, but that's the point of the internship. Right now I'm considering 7th or 8th grade reading, or junior high history. Guess I will see what I think when I am finished. Haha it was so funny I asked my 1st period teacher when seniors last day was. She laughed and said they didn't know yet but she would let me know. She said I was planning for the future I was like Yeah!!! :) Counting down already!! :D Gonna try to miss less days this year.

quotes I've found that I like

-The geat blessing of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it.

-Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

-Lifes to short for what used to be, or could've been.

-life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's about learning to dance in the rain

-Make Love not War

-You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

-When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you have in you.

-Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone then you've got nothing.

-Dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today..

-Don't go to bed angry when you can stay up and plan your revenge

-Stand for something; or you'll fall for anything

-If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

-True friends now how bad you feel even if your fake smile fools everyone else

-Best friends are family that you choose

-PMS= Pass My Shotgun ;)

-You never know how strong you are.. Until being strong is the only choice you have.

- Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream..

-I'm a lover not a fighter, but I'll fight for what I Love

-I'm sugar and spice and everything nice, but if you wanna mess with me you better think twice - Believe in yourself and all that you are Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

- Just think-- In a few years, these will be the "good old days"

-Be who God created you to be, not who the world wants to see.

- Embrace those who love you and whom you love, and rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.

-Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer.

summer is ending!

Bad idea to type a blog now because I keep spelling things wrong so hopefully it won't be too bad!! I cannot believe how fast this summer went by its crazy! I didn't do anything that interesting but it was still good. Working definitely helped fill up my schedule.. In a good and bad way. Everyone said, well if you didn't have a job you wouldn't have money. When I think about well then I wouldn't have had money to spend so I wouldn't have right? Oh well. I guess I will be working somewhat during the school year too. Depending on how busy they are. They hired 4 people this summer and one was fired, another one was only there for the summer, and I have dibs over the person that's there. I'm pretty torn there.. I already don't like school so I'd like all the free time I can get ;) My manager is taking a vacation so it will definitely be weird without her. I'm working a lot the next two weeks. I work the first day of school and then all that weekend. ew, but then I'll be 17!!! Hopefully I don't work on my birthday.. Then labor day weekend going to WV for a family reunion. Be good to get out of OH I've been trying to all summer but couldn't decide where. Now its too late.. I totally don't feel like I'm about to be a senior. I'm so undecided about everything. I just need to figure out what I want to do already! Oh, today was interesting at work. We actually got pretty busy. Which I prefer over being slow that so boring. Well my boss came in so my manager went on a run because the other guys weren't back yet. So, that left me with my boss pretty weird and intimidating haa. I told my manager thanks when she got back and she just laughed at me. haa.

I have a new favorite song. Its If today was your last day by Nickelback.
My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If Today Was Your Last Day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothin' stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day.

The lyrics are amazing too! Its on my playlist.

Camp

Well where to start! Our theme was Oh, the places you'll go. From the doctor Suess book. I have plenty of places I would like to go! BYU, be married in the temple, another country and many others, but that had me thinking a lot about where I would like to go. Plus we made envelopes for our patriarchal blessings. Which was ironic because I've been wanting to get mine. So.. when I do I will have a pretty envelope to put it in :D

Camp started on monday for me. We went to Kent State main and we were working on team work and cheering each other on. They had a rope to climb, a ladder, and a plank that had steps all around it. I did the last one and made it to the top. Then we also climbed a rock wall. I got to the middle and I couldn't reach the next one. I missed it, and wanted to quit, but everyone said I could do it. & sure enough when I started going up again I got to the top. I was pretty nervous about it, but it was still really fun!

Then everyone came on tuesday. I was over 1st years (12 year olds) They were all cute! It rained, but luckily the tent I was in didn't get too wet. I'm getting the days mixed up so I'll just not say the days. We had a lady come talk to us and she had a little slide show she was really amazing. Talking about her family and the trials they have been through and how temples have really come a long ways. Wish I could remember her name, but she was still soo good. We went paintballing which I didn't want to go. I didn't want hurt, or to hurt someone else.. We shot rifles and I did that ;) I got the bulls eye.

I think that thursday was by far the best day, and most spiritual. President Kirk came and talked to us. He read us a list he wrote for his daughter of things that would help her know him better. So he gave everyone a piece of paper to do the same with four categories. I didn't get much done, but this is what I put. Well I can't believe I can't find it.. I must have left it :( Well I guess I will do it again.

LOVE:

* The gospel and all its brought me.

* My family and friends.

* People that can always make me happy.

* Visiting new places.

* Visiting people I haven't seen in a long time.

* A nap after a long day.

* A good book on a slow day.

* Chocolate covered oreos.

TOLERATE:

* People that view things differently.

DETEST:

*People that eat with they're mouth open/ don't have manners.

* People that argue and don't listen to the other side.

* Laziness

* People that try to be something they're not.

AVOID:

* People that will bring me down.

* Places I know I shouldn't be.

* Some parties.

* Uncomfortable situations.

After he talked we had a testimony meeting. That was definitely emotional for a lot of people! I usually don't cry so I wasn't so happy that I did, but I totally couldn't help it. Crying in public is not my thing, but we were around a fire so a lot of people couldn't see me. Cassandra W. started talking about them moving and everything. I'm so sad about that :( Then when she was done and we were both crying she smiled at me and nudged me to go. Sandra D. already went so I was like I better. It was good. Everyone did a good job on their testimonies! I was nervous about being a leader (YCL) and meeting a bunch of new people, but it really wasn't bad. Everyone got along and people made new friendships. I just love any church activity like camp because you're just around with people that believe the same thing, and you don't get that often. All of the leaders did an amazing job and I love them all! I will totally miss a lot of people, but I got some numbers and finding people on facebook. All in all it was a good week and strengthened me to be able to step out of my comfort zone.

Okay, and now I'm gonna write our amazing song for this year written by Sister Allen.

The path we follow in this life, leads to the path that we will follow in the next. So listen to the voice that speaks to you, leadining you, giving you safe passage. This world's a frightening place at times, you may feel all alone walking down this road. Keep moving forward, don't despair, the Lord is always there, you'll know where to go.

Chorus: Oh, the places you will go! Oh, the things you will achieve, you will succeed! Oh, the mountains you will climb, there's no sky that is too high for you to reach.

These are the chapters of your life, they are filled with joy and strife, you just keep moving on. You are steadfast, immovable and strong, piercing the darkness like a Brilliant Dawn! Chorus... Today is your day! You are off and you're away, any way you choose! You know what you know, and you'll decide where to go and what's not for you! Chorus.. Your mountain is waiting, so get on your way! Your mountain is waiting, today is your day! Girl, you will move Mountains!

I totally love that song and the person that wrote it! Its amazing!!!!

Good Weekend! :D

Well last Thursday started off with going to Ravenna and going to the Happy Day School to paint murals. It was cool everyone working together. There was A LOT to paint!! Here is a picture of the part I was working on, an alphabet train.

Then Friday morning we left for Palmyra NY. The bus ride took forever to get there! I hate having to ride for a long time.. :( Then we stopped at a rest stop in Angola. They had a Mcdonalds and everything. Well they’re totally a rip of and Wayy more expensive then everywhere else. So heads up not to go there. It was funny I started talking about it and my manager knew right where I was talking about. Once we got there we went to the bookstore where they printed the book of mormon. It’s interesting that it took so long to do everything. They had to put little letters and put so many in and then put that on the paper and keep doing that. So hopefully they didn’t mess up because it looked really time consuming! Then they had to print all the copies after that, and then the binding and all that kind of stuff. We went to the Sacred Grove where Joseph received his first vision. So we walked around there for a while. I was with one other girl and we were trying to find how to get back out haha. I was smart and asked a lady and she had a map. Oh yeah :) I looked at it and was like well where are we? So she pretty much told us how to get out. It was pretty funny that the whole time my friend that I was walking with was like that’s where he received the vision and kept changing it ha. This is a picture of us on the way there. You can somewhat see how shirts they say, "stand as a witness"

We didn’t have enough time to see the cabins and everything. I don’t know when I’ll go back but I’ll definitely go see that stuff! Then later on that day we went to see the pageant at the Hill Cumorah. I didn’t know what to expect at all, but it was amazing! They had the set already set up so it was interesting to see how it would play out. The lighting made it look different all the time. I was almost falling asleep, but I still enjoyed it. Once it was over we went to the visitors center to have a testimony meeting. I felt bad because more adults talked than youth so I got up. I was debating about it, which I always do! Then the bus ride home actually went by kinda fast only 5 hours. Of course then I wasn’t that tired. I knew I wouldn’t really be able to sleep. I got a little bit of sleep when I got home Saturday morning. Saturday evening I went to Debby Baker’s and she was having a little party. That was fun we ended up going to see fire works. I was happy about that because it’s been forever since I’ve seen any.. Church was good and then work went good too! Talked to my manager for a while. I’m glad that she is so nice and everything. We get along good and if I need to change days she does all that she can. I told her I’m scared what if my next manager is mean. Haha well I’m good for now anyway. I’ve just been in a good mood and I definitely like that!! Usually it doesn’t last long, but I’m trying to be positive :D Girls camp is coming up, and that will be fun too! Any chance to somewhat get away from the real world ends up being good!

Long Time!

I've been thinking about writing a blog for a while, but I kept putting it off! I wrote a LONG one a while ago and then it got deleted so I got mad and didn't want to type another one. My summer has been going by really fast! I've been working a lot the past week. They hired two more people. I'm supposed to somewhat "train" them. I was thinking my manager was crazy I still mess everything up half the time. You live and you learn. Oh today for example I accidentially put alfredo sauce in the container for ranch. There wasn't a lot left so they just dumped it back out and didn't scrape it.. Yesterday I went on a three mile hike which wasn't bad at all.. I thought it would last forever. It didn't I had some people to entertain me :) Eww there were a bunch of dead mice though.. Oh and one that ran in front of us. Which by the way wasn't dead obviously ;) I hung out at my brothers before that. Just chilled. I really want to get a wii its fun! He doesn't have one but he has guitar hero and you can get that on wii too! I want to get my Wii sport age down. I think I'm still like 40. They always give me baseball which I suck at! I like bowling though :)

I'm now planning to try to have a positive attitude! It's actually not going half bad! Probably because no one has irritated me lately :D There was this quote that I Really Like! "Past problems are like a stream when you are standing on a bridge-the stream is rolling underneath you, and your problems have gone downstream. Regardless of how hard you try, you can;t change the past. What I want you to learn to do is look upstream. Watch for things that are coming down the river of life that you can change and control" Yeah I think that is amazing! I don't know whose talk that was and I don't feel like looking it up, but he had a lot of good things to say!! I also read some other ones. I'm coming to realize that I can't control everything or make everything go the way I want it to. I just need to learn to let things go. It is so hard though! I don't know why I obsess over things. A lot of the little things in life seem like big things to me I guess.. Like people lying about stuff or not doing what they say bothers me. How hard is it to tell the truth or do what you say you're going to? Some people take more than they recieve and I think it should at least be equal or give more than you recieve. I try to be a good person and I just don't understand how some people can be the way that they are.. I have the few people that I know I can trust, and then I have the people I'm not sure about but love anyway.

I'm glad that I found a job that all the people there are nice! A lot of the people are funny too! Its reassuring to not have someone get mad when you mess up because I definitely do! Everyone has their battles. Just have to conquer them and do what you think is right. Youth conference is next week I'm looking for an escape! Last year was fun and I'm sure this year will be too! I never really knew much about Palmyra and I just looked it up and read about some of the importances of it. So it should be a cool place to go and a learning experience. I still want to plan a road trip for the end of August I just have to think of a place to go! I've never stayed in a hotel before and I really want to! Plus one with a pool and hot tub or it wouldn't really be fun.. :D

Begininning of Summer

Well.. nothing excited has happened since summer has begun. I hung out with my friend Rose after school thurs and got some A&W (I love that stuff) Now the rest of the summer will be mainly McDonalds cause its closer. Or of course pizza.. Yesterday and today sucked for working it was slow and I got sent home.. I hate that :( Unless I actually want to go home or have something to do.. So yesterday I went home and watched a movie all by my lonesome cause my dad was at a work party. Today I went to graduation because the choir was singing a song. It was pretty pointless to go, but I liked the song. Tomorrow I'm going to cash my check and see my aunt mitzi. It's been a while since I've seen her. I want to see my aunt that lives in Westlake too but that's a drive! Plus I would probably get lost hah. Who knows my dad might be working out there soon ;) He hates it, but I would like it!! That's what sucks about me having my license now I have to drive everywhere. Too much driving isn't fun..

I'm trying to think of what I want to go to college for.. A guy I work with was asking me if I knew what I wanted to do and I said no. He said I should be a pharmacist because they make good money. Doesn't sound to bad to me. Then I think I should've taken a science this year.. It doesn't ever count in college anyway so it doesn't really matter that much anyway. The guy at work is cool he's really smart and always has a bunch of stories. Seems like the kind of person that could do amazing at Jeopardy or something haha. I just want something that'll make good money that I won't have to get my doctorate for. I can't remember where the school was but he said there was a school for it by Akron I think and that I could do the first 2 years anywhere really. Hm, well not thinking too much now I'm sure I'll change my mind before then. I like to have options though!!

Oooh I started reading Twilight. I'm totally behind the bandwagon but whatever. Kindof hard to read two books at the same time when I was always reading one for english. I'm not very far yet to know if I like it or now. Kindof confused actually that Edward totally hates Bella and isn't coming to school anymore. I'll wait til it makes sense.. I also heard Angels and Demons was a good book. My chemistry teacher was reading it so I bought that too.

Work & School

Hm so I thought it was time for another blog!! I just got home a while ago. I ended up working til 9:30 instead of 8. Which I don't really mind give me more hours :D I was going to go to this campsite with my brother but the pool closed at 9 so I'm just going there tomorrow before work. Ugh, work is annoying standing outside and having stupid people saying stupid things. This one guy though he had this black mustache thing and I was like why are you wearing a fake mustache? He was like oh you noticed? It was like duh you have blonde hair?! Didn't say that of course ;) He asked me how old I was I said 16(obviously he'd be buying haaha just kidding!!), he asked me if I wanted to go drink with him and his friends after work. I said no thanks, he said "you don't drink" I said no. Then as he was leaving he was like well were gonna be at I don't remember it'll be a good time. What a loser ha!! When he said you don't drink? I should've just been like no you're wearing a fake mustache freak! People are soo strange. Then inside I was asking how to get to the campsite thing my brother was at because I didn't have clue. Then someone I worked with what you going to drink? I was like I'm going to be with my brother. I don't remember what I said, but I was like I think I'm gonna pass. So then everyone basically got all in my business. Asking me this and that. It gets kindof annoying as if its their business. Whatever though all the people I work with are still cool. I'm learning new things every time about the food and stuff. Pretty much have it down besides the computer and phones. Well that's my interesting work life!!!

So now to the bomb threat that was made yesterday. Last year there was a person who made one which probably didn't think they would find out it was him! Our school has cameras and they figured out it was him. He got a felony on his record and a suspended from our school for a year. (which it wasn't a year) Then this 6th grader thinks that she is going to do it again?? Seriously how messed up is this you seriously need that day off? We have to make it up anyway. We just went in an hour late this morning. I just hate how stupid people are, and how little they think about things. School is just totally dragging on though its horrible! We don't do anything in half the classes which makes it worse because then the days feels twice as long. Just til June 4th!! I totally suck at Alg 2 and Chemistry I was so glad to hear that I have a middle C in both of them so I don't have to stress over that! I'm reading my last book for English that'll give me an A for the nine weeks & should be a B for the year or I'll have to hurry up and read another one before Friday. So my schedule for next year is as followed:

1. Personal Development/ Resource Management

2. Trig (not good ha)

3. Psychology/ Sociology

4. Study Hall

5. American Govt/ Economics

6. French II

7. Choir

8. English Lit Com

Yeah nothing is bad besides the Trig part. Its not required to take a Science so I wasn't going to :D I probably should have but I don't really care..

boring weekend.. :(

So.. I haven't done much this weekend, and I can't believe it's already 9!! Yesterday I went from school to work. Worked 5 hours. Then I went to my moms, and took her to the e.r. this morning for bloodwork. Then I went home, and slept and not much of anything til I left for work today. I worked for 4 hours today, and sold 53 pizzas. OOO and the best part $4 tip haah. I just went to the gas station, and spent two of it on chips :D I got home at quarter after 8. Now I'm doing laundry, and have 3 loads cause I'm a procrastinator! I cleaned up my room cause everything is cluttered so it looks good now :) I'm gonna have a lot of clothes to put away though.. I didn't even put all the clothes away last time, so I had to fold and put those away. I always leave the stuff I hang up for last because that's the worst part!! I work 5 hours again tomorrow. Ughh this really sucks. I can't wait til the summer, and I won't have to work every weekend. I hope they don't fire the other girl so they'll have someone else to do it too.
Oh, but it kindof annoyed me today.. This middle aged lady drives by, and looks at me and says "Domino's Sucks" Seriously?? She fricken sounds like she's my age screaming something stupid out the window. People don't know how to just grow up it is so aggrivating. Ha well my first thought was you suck, but I'll do my job and not be immature like she was :)
haha and the guy that does the tickets for the drive-in came three times! The second time I didn't realize he came before, and he said I'll have the same thing as last time. I was selling medium pepperoni, and x-large brooklnn's. So i was like.. which one did you have? Then the 3rd time he said his buddies saw his pizza, and wanted some so he bought 2 more. I always feel bad when someones talking to you, but you can't quite understand them. The best part is when little kids go by and they wave at you! They're so cute :)

first job!!

Soo.. I officially have a job :D Mhm at Domino's in Andover. Today was my first day, and it went pretty good. So you know how they have those $5 pizzas ready to sell outside? Yep that was me today. She thinks it looks lazy if you sit, so I stood there ha and smiled and waved at everybody. Plus I got a tan how nice is that? I worked 5 hours, and must have sold like 100 pizzas. They said I picked a good night cause it was busy. Oh, and they better be happy I contributed 9 of those pizzas cause I told people to come ha. I wanted to make sure I'd have some customers :) That wasn't a problem though. They ran out twice so people had to wait, but it was nice because that was my break. It was so funny though it wasn't an ambulance, but looked like it it was this medical thing and the guy was like they don't even give you a chair? I was like nope.. He was like dang!! I guess people aren't as evil as I thought most of the people that saw me waved, or smiled back. Then when they didn't I mumbled under my breath jerkk :) The manager was nice, and everyone seemed cool. I'm a little sad that I have to take off my nails though.. She said Idk what she called him, but a big important guy (ha) when he came to inspect they wouldn't get 5 stars if I have them. She said she could give me a heads up, but they would need filled soon anyway.. So hopefully I can get somewhere for them to take them off. It's so horrible doing it yourself!! Yet I continue to put myself through it. Not for a while if I'm lucky though :) I have a lot to learn though. I still have to learn all the stuff inside. Too bad I'm not a quick learner, but I guess not too bad.. It'll be alright I think. Tomorrow is the best of efy so I can't work then. I probably have to work Sunday afternoon though.

I took another book test & got a 90% on it so now I have two 90's and a 92. When I finish the book I have I'll have a B. I'd like to read at least another one after that though. Hopefully I'll still have some time left in my life ha. I told her I needed Wednesdays off, and Sunday for church, but it seems like I'll have to work some Sundays. Hopefully I can get days where I can actually do stuff. Only time will tell. I went to Wal-Mart not to long ago, and got some pants for work, and 2 tanks they were only $5 so why not? Mhm that was my eventful day :)

bipolar blog ha

Well today was so oh so interesting :). I was getting gas, and thought that my tire was low so I was gonna go home and tell my dad. I went to Circle K and Jolene was there so we decided we'd go to the gas station to figure it out. There was already this lady there pumping up her tire so we asked her if she could show us, and she did so that was cool :D Now I know how I think I could've figured it out, but I wouldn't have known that the thing has a thing that tells how many lbs were in it. I still don't know how much my tires need but they look good to me. The ladies daughter was cute though it was funny. The lady said she showed her daughter that was in college how to do it cause you can't rely on a man (totally true!!) Ha and then the daughter was like yeah she's 19, but her boyfriends 20. It was funny I was like uh oh she's gonna tell your life story. The lady said she usually does. That's why little kids are funny they just say any, and everything.

Now to a sore subject I guess you could say.. I didn't really know much about Columbine until yesterday. All I've heard of was how they asked a girl if she believed in God, and she said yes and they shot her. We spent our world history class talking about it yesterday, and my teacher printed off info, and showed us a video. They killed 13 people 12 students, and one teacher. The teacher was in the process of getting as many students as he could out of the school. The 2 doing the killing planted a bunch of bombs everywhere, their house, car, in the school. Only half that they set up went off luckily. They had two propane bombs in the cafeteria that were supposed to go off, and kill 500 people! The one at their houses, and cars didn't go off. They found a journal from the one titled "I hate my Fing life" with the swear word of course ha. I can't remember all the things he said, but all the weird things he hates and everything. Usually people are kidding when they say they hate the world, but there is no doubt that these people weren't kidding about that. That's why schools take the precautions that they do. I'm beginning to understand that. Because when our new school was built there are cameras in the hallways, and lunchroom and nobody liked that. Our teacher told us we're one of the few schools that your just allowed to have all your bags with you. The two guys were wearing black trench coats and had duffel bags. It's just scary to think about that kindof stuff. Sure I get really mad at people and how stupid a lot of the world is, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna go kill everyone!! Well I guess that's my feelings on that subject

Okay this entry is going to be bipolar, but it's all good. I'm I finished the Book of Mormon last night I fell accomplished! Of course I've read plenty of books, but not any others that were as meaningful. Or took so long for that matter ha :) I started last summer probably if I would've read like I would've liked to I would've been done a while ago, but its good either way. I'm almost done with personal progress I'm gonna do a garden, and I have to finish this calendar thing I'm making it's hard to explain. Then one other little thing. Also another big thing I'm completing. Now I just want to get my book done for English ha I plan on getting that done by Friday, and taking the test.

This Week

I'm totally realizing that my life is so boring. I need to plan stuff to do over the summer. Well this week surprisingly went by fast I didn't think it would since it was the first week back since vacation. I started a new book its kindof boring so far.. The last one I read was good, but the test was a little hard. It was about 4 kids and their mother disappeared and they didn't really know any of their family. They had to try to get place to place. It was good. At the end I was scared it wasn't going to end so happily, but it did so I'm happy ;) I'm not sure what I'm gonna think about the one I'm reading its Bean Tree's. Some people liked it, and some people didn't. Its only a little over 300 pages and easy to read so I don't really care. Then pigs in heaven comes after it so I'll read that next. Then I'll be guaranteed a B in English, but I want an A to make sure I have a B for the year.

Hm so on to what I've done this week. Tuesday I spent the night at Jolene's. We went to Wal-Mart so her cousin could get the new Metallica rock band. It's fun we played that a lot. Oh, and got good ol Micky D's while in Middlefield. Then yesterday I fell asleep, then went to mutual. It was girls vs. guys cook off. The guys won, but whatev no big deal ha. We made strawberry cupcakes, and they made a cocunut cake or something. Except my belly kinda hurt so I didn't eat a whole cupcake, and ofcourse now one would sound really good! I don't have much to do today.. I was gonna stay at Jolene's again, but I don't know I didn't feel like it. So now I just ate, and I'm watching Failure to Launch. I'll have to read some tonight, and see if I can get more of my calendar done. Except I can't get the yarn on the needle stupid thing. It's nice out today too. Too bad my dad had to work today I actually kinda feel like doing something.

I'm happy I'm finally understanding Chemistry :) I really don't like that class.. I have an Alg II quiz tomorrow I'll probably wake up early for study table I don't really get whats going on. It makes sense when he does it, but then when i go to do it it doesn't work out so well. Unfortunately I have to take a math next year, but luckily not a science :) So glad next year is my last year. In World History were cutting down the days only 35 left.

End of Spring Break.

I did end up going shopping with my mom it was pretty interesting ha.. I was at my brothers that morning (fri) & headed to my house to get ready, and then to her house. A big surprise I got there and she hadn't even showered yet. My knee was really bothering me so I wasn't so happy about having to drive. We went to Warren to go to Wal-Mart to cash her check. Finally got my eyeliner cause mine was like gone. Then we were on our way to Niles. She wanted to go to Sharon, but I said no way. Were almost to Niles & my moms like "where's the bag?" I was like I didn't get it & neither did she. So once we were done in Niles we had to go back to Warren to get it haa were a bunch of idiots! Especially since the day before my sister-in-law left her bag at the mall, and after I told them about Janet leaving her stuff in Erie. That makes me laugh every time even though its not funny :D I started working on this calendar thing I'm so glad my moms gonna help me. It only has to take 10 hours and it'd take me like 30. Sewing has never been my thing I get so impatient because something always has to mess up!!

I'm so glad I'm done editing this thing I hate editing stuff. Just did this & myspace so I'm good to go! Ha that's what I did at my aunts the past 2 weekends. Plus we played monopoly last weekend, and i whopped them all. I think the first time I played since I actually knew what I was doing. Then my niece was bragging on Easter that she beat everyone pretty funny. Easter was good I ended up waking up at 7 cause I had to pee so I was like whatev I'll get up now I guess. When I was ready:

I was almost ready, and thought my dad already showered.. nope. So had to wait for him too. My parents have that in common. :( I was so stuffed yesterday too many things to eat in such a short time hehe. There was this really good cake ha I had 3 pieces, but they were little pieces!! Makes me want to go get my Easter candy, I want chocolate now. Ugh its outside though I'm not getting out of my pjs today there's no reason ha. It's depressing having to go back to school tomorrow. I'm soo glad its almost over. I just remembered that I have two lab reports I didn't start & they're due wed. A lot of stuff to do tomorrow unfortunately.

Well I'm getting me a bubble bath when I'm done watching the pursuit of happiness. Oh and lovely laundry..

I'm pretty irritated right now with the movie I just started watching.. I didn't like it at all. I didn't even want to finish it. I love Meryl Streep, but the story just sucked. Being about catholic priests taking advantage of little kids it just disgusts me! I just don't understand how there can be that screwed up of people in the world and that they could get those positions, and then claim that they speak for god. How can you do that when your not an example of him. Giving the whole faith a bad name, and making it so other people have to go out of their way trying to make sure that the same thing won't happen. Everyone knows a tiny portion of something and think they know everything when half the time they don't even know what they're talking about. People only focus on the bad of things. It made me think a lot about it.

Well, on a better note its spring break! It was pretty good I played monopoly the first time since I actually know how to play it. It's silly how with the simple of things you learn lessons. I wasn't doing good & I was about to say I was done. Then I started progressing, and I actually won. I give up on things way to easily, and make them seem like they're impossible. My new goal :)

Then I hung out with Jen & Jolene, and then went home & did some cleaning. Not the thing I really want to do, but I'm trying to accept that too. Not the best at doing that though because I'll argue that up and down. Last night I stayed the night at my brothers and I'm here now was gonna go home, but then I got tired. Gonna spend time with my mom tomorrow not for sure what were gonna do yet I guess she said go shopping so that should be cool. Well that's all the updates.

New grading period.

Well today has made me happier :) I got a C in Alg 2 I was so nervous good thing he's nice! I def need to try harder for the next 9 weeks. I got an A in Advanced foods hopefully get an A in there for the year. Still haven't gotten my grade for french yet. I'm almost on page 100 of my book hopefully I can read 6 pts worth of books, but that will be a lot.. I'll find the easiest one maybe? :) I'm still thinking of what I'd like to go to college for any suggestions? My dads trying to tell me I'll make a lot of money driving a dump truck I'm like uh no.. Makes me feel manly, and I don't want to do that anyways.
My weekend kinda went by fast so that was sad.. Saturday was really annoying but Chas made it all better :D Fireproof was a really good movie movies with a purpose are always better! If only that could work for everyone I can't remember what the thing is, but they should send that to everyone that gets married and maybe it'd work more. Its so annoying when people get married for the wrong reasons. Have respect for yourself & what you want. I'd rather be single forever then be with the wrong person hopefully that doesn't happen cause that totally wouldn't be cool ha ;) Everyone always says learn from other peoples mistakes I'm good with that. I think learning from your own are just as important. Search for whats truly important not petty things that don't mean anything in the end.
Yep :)

Trying to sum things up.

Well where should I start. Well you should know the names Jessica I'm 16 going on 25. I only wish :). I'm a junior right now, and I don't think it could be going by any slower right now. I've been talking to everyone and it seems like everyone is getting senioritis wayy to early. Tomorrow is the end of the 3rd nine weeks. I wish I was doing better. I'm thinking about not going into trig next year because Math really isn't my best subject. I like the teacher though so I may stick it out just be more determined. I think it'll be good Rose probably won't be in my class next year cause she distracts me I need to be a loner :). I'm not taking a science class not required yay. I'm taking chemistry this year, and I am really hoping I won't ever need to know it. Science has never interested me. On the other hand I like history because it won't change what you know will always be compatible. English isn't to bad either as long as I find a good book to read. I found some that I didn't like very much this 9 weeks so that didn't make things all that great. Well that's all about school for now.
Now The Move! Its been kinda stressful having to do things so quickly my dad just wanted to be in at the beginning of the month.. For the most part everything is pretty settled. Hardest part is the random things that never really had a place from the begin with.. My dad can take care of those :D. I'm just nice like that. My room is pretty good though. I have a bunch of stuffed animals that were in this holder thing I'm just gonna put them all on my closet shelf & everything else should look pretty situated in there. The distance is kinda getting to me if I wasn't in the middle of nowhere before I definitely am now! 20 minutes to school, and I have really figured out the distance to church its not that different from before, but that's because I like to go 70 on 11. ;) Not so bad..
I'm bummed cause my bf got a job, and we can't hang out much now. I need to find a job too and then we definitely probably couldn't figure things out around our schedules.. I've never really been into sports, and I'm starting to thing that's a bad thing not to be in any extracurriculars for college.. Another thing that has been weighting down my mind a lot lately. Where would be the best for me & where I really want to go, but how it'll all work out in the end. I'm trying not to worry about it so much because whats supposed to happen will. I have a hard time questioning and doubting things I can't think I know this will happen in the future because there is still that unsurety. There are also things I know will always be in my life because I won't settle for them not to be its just the matter of getting to that point. I can be very hardheaded and what I want is what I want. I will take the time to listen to others opinions, but if its not in my plan or what I want to hear it probably won't stay with me. Then there are those I love to death whose opinion I will never push away because I know they know what I want, and what is good for me. & I thought this would be hard to just write away :). This is goood!
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