MISSOURI!!

It has been forever since I have posted a new post!!! Just read my last one to try to remember.. I have already started my second internship with 4th grade which just made me even more unsure what I want! I still have some time so I'm not freaking out about it. I still don't know about colleges either its getting to crunch time! uh oh..

I got my patriarchal blessing on the 15th that was good!! I can't wait til I get it in the mail so I can read it. You can't really catch everything as he's saying it. I caught some good stuff though ;).

Then, tuesday I left with my dad, aunt & uncle and their two kids and my grandma we're in Missouri now. 13 hour drive. It could've been worse though so I'm not complaining :)

On thanksgiving we ate and everything and then at 4 when to Silver Dollar City that's in Branson. We went last year I like it. They have some pretty cool stuff there and good food :D. I got some cute jewelry from there. I got this potato stuff though that everyone said was good I didn't like it.. It was potatoes and sweet potatoes mixed.. It made it too sweet and weird.

Today we went to Bass Pro Shops. The main one is here and its huge! I got some clothes from there. Wasn't so interested in the hunting part of it though.. My dad likes that part of it. We kind of split up and he was like freaking cause he didn't see me the whole time we were there til we met up again :) There is usually a ton of people but it was pretty bad today! That would be why I don't go shopping on black friday cause theres a million people out! I like shopping in moderation. Under 3 hours at a time!

Hmm. what else? I'm heading back to Ohio saturday during the night some time I think.. Don't really want to go back.. I like it out here. My aunt was telling me about a college that's out here College of the Ozark's or something like that. You work there so then you don't have debt or anything which is pretty cool! Plus no drinking or smoking etc. on the campus so another plus :) I might check that out. It's only like 40 minutes from my family in Missouri. I could still be away from home but close to some family at the same time.

Well nothing new has really happened lately.. Last Saturday I took my ACT. That was super fun!!!! Just anxious to see how I did! I have to wait 5-8 weeks. So I guess I’ll see then. My first internship is over next week. I can’t believe it’s been 5 weeks already!! This year has gone by so fast. I taught my lesson today. I have to teach one at each internship. For this one we went on a nature walk and they had to think about their 5 senses while we were on it. Then we made a web and they had to write in their journals. I think I should’ve written complete sentences in the web though because they were having some problems making the words I gave them into sentences.. It took a lot longer than I expected too. It didn’t go bad though. I pretty much know I don’t want to teach that young though hah. I’m doing 4th grade next and I think that will be cool. I know a lot of the kids because I helped some of their specials last year. Plus they’re older and I don’t think I want to teach below 4th grade which is good because there’s a teaching license for 4th-9th grade which is what I’m thinking about now. There is also one that’s 7th-12th but I don’t know if I want to teach high school or not.. Ha still not sure. I still have this year to think about it though, so that’s good! I just totally don’t feel like a senior at all and I definitely don’t feel like I’m about to be graduating and going off to college ahhH! Soo much to think about. That’s pretty much all that’s new though :)

First Internship

Well, I started my internships last wednesday. It's been really good and I enjoy it! I helped out in the elementary last year and went down to 3rd grade. I'm doing 1st grade now. They're really cute and everything but maybe a little too young for me. I did like the 3rd grade though they're a little older and follow directions better and everything like that. My next internship is in the 4th grade I found out about the teacher today and the teacher I'm with now said she's a good teacher. So, that's good :) She brings her daughter to Grand Valley and can choose the teachers she's gonna have in elementary. I was like well you're lucky! My teacher for Teacher Academy came in today and we talked for a little bit. Then the class was writing in their journals so she said she'd let me get back to helping them. So, then she starting talking with the teacher I'm interning with it was pretty awkward.. Ha. So, once they were done talking my teacher from the JVS left and when I was walked past her I said well you guys talking is pretty weird! She laughed and said I know! Then she said they weren't talking about anything bad. Which I'm hoping she was telling the truth :D

It's just like unreal that I'm a senior this year! It doesn't even feel like I am! This year has been going by pretty fast surprisingly! Some days seem like they're going by slow, but in the long run it has gone by really fast. Going down to the elementary is the highlight to my day :) So, it's made some days better :) It was so cute today though because I walk through the cafeteria to get to the class I'm going to. & some kids from the class I'm in waved at me and then kids I didn't even know were waving at me. Ha I was like someone famous just walking by them waving at everyone :D

I'm just still not quite sure which grade I want to do yet. I'll figure that out by the end of the year though.. Then I still I have to decide college and everything hmm. I'm just gonna miss all the kids I meet and everything. I'm already thinking about that part.. :( Oh, another fear I talked about today is that my first class I have when I become a teacher will be like too much to handle or something.. Makes me a little nervous. I guess it's somewhat similar to other jobs because you may not get a long with people at your job but this is still different because I'll be the one in charge and have to find a way to make everything work. Ha, I'm content now with working with somebody not so much by myself all the time. I think once you've been a teacher for a couple years it's easier because you have your lessons figured out and everything, but I'm gonna have to figure all that stuff out. I should focus on the good though, so I'm gonna keep that in mind :)

Good day ;)

Today was pretty good :D I got to meet the first teacher that I'm going to be interning with. Plus the class sortof they just said hi to me. The teacher seemed nice though and now I'm really excited! Next wednesday is the first day! I'll have 11:30-12:40 then have to go down there but then I have to stay til 3:25.. Oh well atleast I'll get all my work done before I go home! I saw my choir teacher that switched this year to do elementary til she retires. I couldn't take choir this year anyway.. Interms go out this week I'm not getting any haa :D In english we have this fairy tale project which I'm interested to see how that goes. We're doing rumplestiltskin or however its spelled.. I never heard of it until now when we have to act it out.. Hopefully that goes well.. My last day at work is this saturday.. I wish I didn't even have to go then but I owe my manager. It's just super slow lately and I'd like to get another job I just really don't have the time if I want to get school done.. Plus with me not really knowing whats in store for the rest of the year and internships and everything. Some will be at a little different time but should be over at 3:25.. Oh well my dad said I didn't need a job now he'll see haa. I'll be glad to be able to do whatever on the weekends now! It was horrible just having to work all weekend!

Oh haa I just remembered. I'm at my moms now and she always liked to borrow my clothes which I didn't like so much and she wore one pair and at work she got a hole in them. Then we were just talking about what it looks like when she sews a hole and that its only been when she's wearing my pants that she cuts her leg with a razor knife (not bad) Hahaha so I told her that my pants wanted my legs back :D thought it was funny hehe

Stressed!!

Well it's pretty ironic that I've been stressing out lately and then in 2 classes we were talking about it. I was reading all the symptoms and looked at my friend jokingly and was like hey I think theres a good chance I'm stressed! Only part is to change it which isn't very easy.. I get home and just don't feel like doing all the work I have. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I did choose teacher academy on the spur of the moment, but want to do it because I need to figure out what I want to do. Its getting overwhelming all the work in there plus the other classes I'm taking. I'm totally not disciplined because I'm totally not used this to this much work. Everyone says that thats how college is, but I'm not in college yet.. Guess I just need to get used to it and suck it up.
Today was fun. Went to my aunts and hung out there. Then went to a cook off. There were 4 groups we had to make a dessert pizza and a regular pizza. Then make up a team name & a name for the pizzas it was fun! We were the bakin' babes ;) ha. Both of our pizzas were pretty good! We didn't win though.. :( Oh well I don't really care anyway. The dough we used is totally not like Domino's hah I wasn't very successful.. I was telling everyone I should have brought dough in, but they said it was cheating haha. Today was good though cause I got to see some people that I haven't seen in a while! Ha like Sister Allen!!! So, we had to get a picture of course :D

I'm getting ready to go to sleep I'm really tired! Going to church tomorrow then have 2 essay's to write and some other homework. Plus my talk is next sunday have to make it good :D Temple trip is next sunday too. There is a college fair at Lakeland sunday at noon. I might go not sure I'd have to leave church way early.

Beginning of School

Well school started on tuesday. And not to my surprise I couldn't really sleep monday night.. so I was a little tired.. :) School went good it was the usual first day. I already knew all the teachers I had and had them before. My schedule changed since I was taking teacher academy at the JVS. I was only able to take 5 classes to get there on time. Which made it so I couldn't take Trig and had to take Algebra II over again. I guess I don't really care about that that much because I know I totally slacked last year. So hopefully I learned from that :D I also wasn't able to take french II because it was only later in the day. So I took two years of spanish and one of french.. Besides that the first day at Grand Valley went pretty smoothly.

So now my new schedule is:

Personal Development/Resource management

English Lit Com

Psychology/Sociology

Algebra II

Am Govt/Economics

After that I headed to the Jvs. I was somewhat nervous about that because I didn't know what to expect or anyone that would be there. Now there are 8 people in our class. Our teacher is really nice and this is going to be her last year. So, now we're meeting at the JVS everyday until september 30th and then only on mondays and tuesdays for the rest of the year. Wednesday to friday we're doing internships at our schools. We have 6 total and they're about 5 weeks each or so and you have to plan a lesson for each. I already have some experience from last year going down to help the 3rd graders so I'm not too worried about that.

I've been undecided as to what I wanted to do and then when my teacher called me it just felt right so here I am! It kindof brought me down that my friend started laughing and saying I could never be a teacher. (well I was laughing too) She said that I have no patience and I would punch a kid and get fired. Haha well I totally don't think its that extreme!! I have to give myself props I've never punched anybody before and I definitely wouldn't do it to a kid! Everyone has their goals to accomplish and mine has always been to have more patience so what better way to do that? Plus I'm usually good at hiding it and not freaking out :) I haven't decided what grade or class or anything, but that's the point of the internship. Right now I'm considering 7th or 8th grade reading, or junior high history. Guess I will see what I think when I am finished. Haha it was so funny I asked my 1st period teacher when seniors last day was. She laughed and said they didn't know yet but she would let me know. She said I was planning for the future I was like Yeah!!! :) Counting down already!! :D Gonna try to miss less days this year.

quotes I've found that I like

-The geat blessing of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it.

-Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

-Lifes to short for what used to be, or could've been.

-life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's about learning to dance in the rain

-Make Love not War

-You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

-When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you have in you.

-Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone then you've got nothing.

-Dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today..

-Don't go to bed angry when you can stay up and plan your revenge

-Stand for something; or you'll fall for anything

-If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

-True friends now how bad you feel even if your fake smile fools everyone else

-Best friends are family that you choose

-PMS= Pass My Shotgun ;)

-You never know how strong you are.. Until being strong is the only choice you have.

- Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream..

-I'm a lover not a fighter, but I'll fight for what I Love

-I'm sugar and spice and everything nice, but if you wanna mess with me you better think twice - Believe in yourself and all that you are Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

- Just think-- In a few years, these will be the "good old days"

-Be who God created you to be, not who the world wants to see.

- Embrace those who love you and whom you love, and rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.

-Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer.