Well nothing new has really happened lately.. Last Saturday I took my ACT. That was super fun!!!! Just anxious to see how I did! I have to wait 5-8 weeks. So I guess I’ll see then. My first internship is over next week. I can’t believe it’s been 5 weeks already!! This year has gone by so fast. I taught my lesson today. I have to teach one at each internship. For this one we went on a nature walk and they had to think about their 5 senses while we were on it. Then we made a web and they had to write in their journals. I think I should’ve written complete sentences in the web though because they were having some problems making the words I gave them into sentences.. It took a lot longer than I expected too. It didn’t go bad though. I pretty much know I don’t want to teach that young though hah. I’m doing 4th grade next and I think that will be cool. I know a lot of the kids because I helped some of their specials last year. Plus they’re older and I don’t think I want to teach below 4th grade which is good because there’s a teaching license for 4th-9th grade which is what I’m thinking about now. There is also one that’s 7th-12th but I don’t know if I want to teach high school or not.. Ha still not sure. I still have this year to think about it though, so that’s good! I just totally don’t feel like a senior at all and I definitely don’t feel like I’m about to be graduating and going off to college ahhH! Soo much to think about. That’s pretty much all that’s new though :)

First Internship

Well, I started my internships last wednesday. It's been really good and I enjoy it! I helped out in the elementary last year and went down to 3rd grade. I'm doing 1st grade now. They're really cute and everything but maybe a little too young for me. I did like the 3rd grade though they're a little older and follow directions better and everything like that. My next internship is in the 4th grade I found out about the teacher today and the teacher I'm with now said she's a good teacher. So, that's good :) She brings her daughter to Grand Valley and can choose the teachers she's gonna have in elementary. I was like well you're lucky! My teacher for Teacher Academy came in today and we talked for a little bit. Then the class was writing in their journals so she said she'd let me get back to helping them. So, then she starting talking with the teacher I'm interning with it was pretty awkward.. Ha. So, once they were done talking my teacher from the JVS left and when I was walked past her I said well you guys talking is pretty weird! She laughed and said I know! Then she said they weren't talking about anything bad. Which I'm hoping she was telling the truth :D

It's just like unreal that I'm a senior this year! It doesn't even feel like I am! This year has been going by pretty fast surprisingly! Some days seem like they're going by slow, but in the long run it has gone by really fast. Going down to the elementary is the highlight to my day :) So, it's made some days better :) It was so cute today though because I walk through the cafeteria to get to the class I'm going to. & some kids from the class I'm in waved at me and then kids I didn't even know were waving at me. Ha I was like someone famous just walking by them waving at everyone :D

I'm just still not quite sure which grade I want to do yet. I'll figure that out by the end of the year though.. Then I still I have to decide college and everything hmm. I'm just gonna miss all the kids I meet and everything. I'm already thinking about that part.. :( Oh, another fear I talked about today is that my first class I have when I become a teacher will be like too much to handle or something.. Makes me a little nervous. I guess it's somewhat similar to other jobs because you may not get a long with people at your job but this is still different because I'll be the one in charge and have to find a way to make everything work. Ha, I'm content now with working with somebody not so much by myself all the time. I think once you've been a teacher for a couple years it's easier because you have your lessons figured out and everything, but I'm gonna have to figure all that stuff out. I should focus on the good though, so I'm gonna keep that in mind :)

Good day ;)

Today was pretty good :D I got to meet the first teacher that I'm going to be interning with. Plus the class sortof they just said hi to me. The teacher seemed nice though and now I'm really excited! Next wednesday is the first day! I'll have 11:30-12:40 then have to go down there but then I have to stay til 3:25.. Oh well atleast I'll get all my work done before I go home! I saw my choir teacher that switched this year to do elementary til she retires. I couldn't take choir this year anyway.. Interms go out this week I'm not getting any haa :D In english we have this fairy tale project which I'm interested to see how that goes. We're doing rumplestiltskin or however its spelled.. I never heard of it until now when we have to act it out.. Hopefully that goes well.. My last day at work is this saturday.. I wish I didn't even have to go then but I owe my manager. It's just super slow lately and I'd like to get another job I just really don't have the time if I want to get school done.. Plus with me not really knowing whats in store for the rest of the year and internships and everything. Some will be at a little different time but should be over at 3:25.. Oh well my dad said I didn't need a job now he'll see haa. I'll be glad to be able to do whatever on the weekends now! It was horrible just having to work all weekend!

Oh haa I just remembered. I'm at my moms now and she always liked to borrow my clothes which I didn't like so much and she wore one pair and at work she got a hole in them. Then we were just talking about what it looks like when she sews a hole and that its only been when she's wearing my pants that she cuts her leg with a razor knife (not bad) Hahaha so I told her that my pants wanted my legs back :D thought it was funny hehe

Stressed!!

Well it's pretty ironic that I've been stressing out lately and then in 2 classes we were talking about it. I was reading all the symptoms and looked at my friend jokingly and was like hey I think theres a good chance I'm stressed! Only part is to change it which isn't very easy.. I get home and just don't feel like doing all the work I have. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I did choose teacher academy on the spur of the moment, but want to do it because I need to figure out what I want to do. Its getting overwhelming all the work in there plus the other classes I'm taking. I'm totally not disciplined because I'm totally not used this to this much work. Everyone says that thats how college is, but I'm not in college yet.. Guess I just need to get used to it and suck it up.
Today was fun. Went to my aunts and hung out there. Then went to a cook off. There were 4 groups we had to make a dessert pizza and a regular pizza. Then make up a team name & a name for the pizzas it was fun! We were the bakin' babes ;) ha. Both of our pizzas were pretty good! We didn't win though.. :( Oh well I don't really care anyway. The dough we used is totally not like Domino's hah I wasn't very successful.. I was telling everyone I should have brought dough in, but they said it was cheating haha. Today was good though cause I got to see some people that I haven't seen in a while! Ha like Sister Allen!!! So, we had to get a picture of course :D

I'm getting ready to go to sleep I'm really tired! Going to church tomorrow then have 2 essay's to write and some other homework. Plus my talk is next sunday have to make it good :D Temple trip is next sunday too. There is a college fair at Lakeland sunday at noon. I might go not sure I'd have to leave church way early.

Beginning of School

Well school started on tuesday. And not to my surprise I couldn't really sleep monday night.. so I was a little tired.. :) School went good it was the usual first day. I already knew all the teachers I had and had them before. My schedule changed since I was taking teacher academy at the JVS. I was only able to take 5 classes to get there on time. Which made it so I couldn't take Trig and had to take Algebra II over again. I guess I don't really care about that that much because I know I totally slacked last year. So hopefully I learned from that :D I also wasn't able to take french II because it was only later in the day. So I took two years of spanish and one of french.. Besides that the first day at Grand Valley went pretty smoothly.

So now my new schedule is:

Personal Development/Resource management

English Lit Com

Psychology/Sociology

Algebra II

Am Govt/Economics

After that I headed to the Jvs. I was somewhat nervous about that because I didn't know what to expect or anyone that would be there. Now there are 8 people in our class. Our teacher is really nice and this is going to be her last year. So, now we're meeting at the JVS everyday until september 30th and then only on mondays and tuesdays for the rest of the year. Wednesday to friday we're doing internships at our schools. We have 6 total and they're about 5 weeks each or so and you have to plan a lesson for each. I already have some experience from last year going down to help the 3rd graders so I'm not too worried about that.

I've been undecided as to what I wanted to do and then when my teacher called me it just felt right so here I am! It kindof brought me down that my friend started laughing and saying I could never be a teacher. (well I was laughing too) She said that I have no patience and I would punch a kid and get fired. Haha well I totally don't think its that extreme!! I have to give myself props I've never punched anybody before and I definitely wouldn't do it to a kid! Everyone has their goals to accomplish and mine has always been to have more patience so what better way to do that? Plus I'm usually good at hiding it and not freaking out :) I haven't decided what grade or class or anything, but that's the point of the internship. Right now I'm considering 7th or 8th grade reading, or junior high history. Guess I will see what I think when I am finished. Haha it was so funny I asked my 1st period teacher when seniors last day was. She laughed and said they didn't know yet but she would let me know. She said I was planning for the future I was like Yeah!!! :) Counting down already!! :D Gonna try to miss less days this year.

quotes I've found that I like

-The geat blessing of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it.

-Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

-Lifes to short for what used to be, or could've been.

-life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's about learning to dance in the rain

-Make Love not War

-You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

-When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you have in you.

-Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone then you've got nothing.

-Dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today..

-Don't go to bed angry when you can stay up and plan your revenge

-Stand for something; or you'll fall for anything

-If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

-True friends now how bad you feel even if your fake smile fools everyone else

-Best friends are family that you choose

-PMS= Pass My Shotgun ;)

-You never know how strong you are.. Until being strong is the only choice you have.

- Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream..

-I'm a lover not a fighter, but I'll fight for what I Love

-I'm sugar and spice and everything nice, but if you wanna mess with me you better think twice - Believe in yourself and all that you are Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

- Just think-- In a few years, these will be the "good old days"

-Be who God created you to be, not who the world wants to see.

- Embrace those who love you and whom you love, and rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.

-Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer.

summer is ending!

Bad idea to type a blog now because I keep spelling things wrong so hopefully it won't be too bad!! I cannot believe how fast this summer went by its crazy! I didn't do anything that interesting but it was still good. Working definitely helped fill up my schedule.. In a good and bad way. Everyone said, well if you didn't have a job you wouldn't have money. When I think about well then I wouldn't have had money to spend so I wouldn't have right? Oh well. I guess I will be working somewhat during the school year too. Depending on how busy they are. They hired 4 people this summer and one was fired, another one was only there for the summer, and I have dibs over the person that's there. I'm pretty torn there.. I already don't like school so I'd like all the free time I can get ;) My manager is taking a vacation so it will definitely be weird without her. I'm working a lot the next two weeks. I work the first day of school and then all that weekend. ew, but then I'll be 17!!! Hopefully I don't work on my birthday.. Then labor day weekend going to WV for a family reunion. Be good to get out of OH I've been trying to all summer but couldn't decide where. Now its too late.. I totally don't feel like I'm about to be a senior. I'm so undecided about everything. I just need to figure out what I want to do already! Oh, today was interesting at work. We actually got pretty busy. Which I prefer over being slow that so boring. Well my boss came in so my manager went on a run because the other guys weren't back yet. So, that left me with my boss pretty weird and intimidating haa. I told my manager thanks when she got back and she just laughed at me. haa.

I have a new favorite song. Its If today was your last day by Nickelback.
My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If Today Was Your Last Day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothin' stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day.

The lyrics are amazing too! Its on my playlist.