Stressed!!

Well it's pretty ironic that I've been stressing out lately and then in 2 classes we were talking about it. I was reading all the symptoms and looked at my friend jokingly and was like hey I think theres a good chance I'm stressed! Only part is to change it which isn't very easy.. I get home and just don't feel like doing all the work I have. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I did choose teacher academy on the spur of the moment, but want to do it because I need to figure out what I want to do. Its getting overwhelming all the work in there plus the other classes I'm taking. I'm totally not disciplined because I'm totally not used this to this much work. Everyone says that thats how college is, but I'm not in college yet.. Guess I just need to get used to it and suck it up.
Today was fun. Went to my aunts and hung out there. Then went to a cook off. There were 4 groups we had to make a dessert pizza and a regular pizza. Then make up a team name & a name for the pizzas it was fun! We were the bakin' babes ;) ha. Both of our pizzas were pretty good! We didn't win though.. :( Oh well I don't really care anyway. The dough we used is totally not like Domino's hah I wasn't very successful.. I was telling everyone I should have brought dough in, but they said it was cheating haha. Today was good though cause I got to see some people that I haven't seen in a while! Ha like Sister Allen!!! So, we had to get a picture of course :D

I'm getting ready to go to sleep I'm really tired! Going to church tomorrow then have 2 essay's to write and some other homework. Plus my talk is next sunday have to make it good :D Temple trip is next sunday too. There is a college fair at Lakeland sunday at noon. I might go not sure I'd have to leave church way early.

Beginning of School

Well school started on tuesday. And not to my surprise I couldn't really sleep monday night.. so I was a little tired.. :) School went good it was the usual first day. I already knew all the teachers I had and had them before. My schedule changed since I was taking teacher academy at the JVS. I was only able to take 5 classes to get there on time. Which made it so I couldn't take Trig and had to take Algebra II over again. I guess I don't really care about that that much because I know I totally slacked last year. So hopefully I learned from that :D I also wasn't able to take french II because it was only later in the day. So I took two years of spanish and one of french.. Besides that the first day at Grand Valley went pretty smoothly.

So now my new schedule is:

Personal Development/Resource management

English Lit Com

Psychology/Sociology

Algebra II

Am Govt/Economics

After that I headed to the Jvs. I was somewhat nervous about that because I didn't know what to expect or anyone that would be there. Now there are 8 people in our class. Our teacher is really nice and this is going to be her last year. So, now we're meeting at the JVS everyday until september 30th and then only on mondays and tuesdays for the rest of the year. Wednesday to friday we're doing internships at our schools. We have 6 total and they're about 5 weeks each or so and you have to plan a lesson for each. I already have some experience from last year going down to help the 3rd graders so I'm not too worried about that.

I've been undecided as to what I wanted to do and then when my teacher called me it just felt right so here I am! It kindof brought me down that my friend started laughing and saying I could never be a teacher. (well I was laughing too) She said that I have no patience and I would punch a kid and get fired. Haha well I totally don't think its that extreme!! I have to give myself props I've never punched anybody before and I definitely wouldn't do it to a kid! Everyone has their goals to accomplish and mine has always been to have more patience so what better way to do that? Plus I'm usually good at hiding it and not freaking out :) I haven't decided what grade or class or anything, but that's the point of the internship. Right now I'm considering 7th or 8th grade reading, or junior high history. Guess I will see what I think when I am finished. Haha it was so funny I asked my 1st period teacher when seniors last day was. She laughed and said they didn't know yet but she would let me know. She said I was planning for the future I was like Yeah!!! :) Counting down already!! :D Gonna try to miss less days this year.

quotes I've found that I like

-The geat blessing of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it.

-Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

-Lifes to short for what used to be, or could've been.

-life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's about learning to dance in the rain

-Make Love not War

-You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

-When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you have in you.

-Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone then you've got nothing.

-Dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today..

-Don't go to bed angry when you can stay up and plan your revenge

-Stand for something; or you'll fall for anything

-If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

-True friends now how bad you feel even if your fake smile fools everyone else

-Best friends are family that you choose

-PMS= Pass My Shotgun ;)

-You never know how strong you are.. Until being strong is the only choice you have.

- Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream..

-I'm a lover not a fighter, but I'll fight for what I Love

-I'm sugar and spice and everything nice, but if you wanna mess with me you better think twice - Believe in yourself and all that you are Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

- Just think-- In a few years, these will be the "good old days"

-Be who God created you to be, not who the world wants to see.

- Embrace those who love you and whom you love, and rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.

-Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer.

summer is ending!

Bad idea to type a blog now because I keep spelling things wrong so hopefully it won't be too bad!! I cannot believe how fast this summer went by its crazy! I didn't do anything that interesting but it was still good. Working definitely helped fill up my schedule.. In a good and bad way. Everyone said, well if you didn't have a job you wouldn't have money. When I think about well then I wouldn't have had money to spend so I wouldn't have right? Oh well. I guess I will be working somewhat during the school year too. Depending on how busy they are. They hired 4 people this summer and one was fired, another one was only there for the summer, and I have dibs over the person that's there. I'm pretty torn there.. I already don't like school so I'd like all the free time I can get ;) My manager is taking a vacation so it will definitely be weird without her. I'm working a lot the next two weeks. I work the first day of school and then all that weekend. ew, but then I'll be 17!!! Hopefully I don't work on my birthday.. Then labor day weekend going to WV for a family reunion. Be good to get out of OH I've been trying to all summer but couldn't decide where. Now its too late.. I totally don't feel like I'm about to be a senior. I'm so undecided about everything. I just need to figure out what I want to do already! Oh, today was interesting at work. We actually got pretty busy. Which I prefer over being slow that so boring. Well my boss came in so my manager went on a run because the other guys weren't back yet. So, that left me with my boss pretty weird and intimidating haa. I told my manager thanks when she got back and she just laughed at me. haa.

I have a new favorite song. Its If today was your last day by Nickelback.
My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If Today Was Your Last Day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothin' stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day.

The lyrics are amazing too! Its on my playlist.

Camp

Well where to start! Our theme was Oh, the places you'll go. From the doctor Suess book. I have plenty of places I would like to go! BYU, be married in the temple, another country and many others, but that had me thinking a lot about where I would like to go. Plus we made envelopes for our patriarchal blessings. Which was ironic because I've been wanting to get mine. So.. when I do I will have a pretty envelope to put it in :D

Camp started on monday for me. We went to Kent State main and we were working on team work and cheering each other on. They had a rope to climb, a ladder, and a plank that had steps all around it. I did the last one and made it to the top. Then we also climbed a rock wall. I got to the middle and I couldn't reach the next one. I missed it, and wanted to quit, but everyone said I could do it. & sure enough when I started going up again I got to the top. I was pretty nervous about it, but it was still really fun!

Then everyone came on tuesday. I was over 1st years (12 year olds) They were all cute! It rained, but luckily the tent I was in didn't get too wet. I'm getting the days mixed up so I'll just not say the days. We had a lady come talk to us and she had a little slide show she was really amazing. Talking about her family and the trials they have been through and how temples have really come a long ways. Wish I could remember her name, but she was still soo good. We went paintballing which I didn't want to go. I didn't want hurt, or to hurt someone else.. We shot rifles and I did that ;) I got the bulls eye.

I think that thursday was by far the best day, and most spiritual. President Kirk came and talked to us. He read us a list he wrote for his daughter of things that would help her know him better. So he gave everyone a piece of paper to do the same with four categories. I didn't get much done, but this is what I put. Well I can't believe I can't find it.. I must have left it :( Well I guess I will do it again.

LOVE:

* The gospel and all its brought me.

* My family and friends.

* People that can always make me happy.

* Visiting new places.

* Visiting people I haven't seen in a long time.

* A nap after a long day.

* A good book on a slow day.

* Chocolate covered oreos.

TOLERATE:

* People that view things differently.

DETEST:

*People that eat with they're mouth open/ don't have manners.

* People that argue and don't listen to the other side.

* Laziness

* People that try to be something they're not.

AVOID:

* People that will bring me down.

* Places I know I shouldn't be.

* Some parties.

* Uncomfortable situations.

After he talked we had a testimony meeting. That was definitely emotional for a lot of people! I usually don't cry so I wasn't so happy that I did, but I totally couldn't help it. Crying in public is not my thing, but we were around a fire so a lot of people couldn't see me. Cassandra W. started talking about them moving and everything. I'm so sad about that :( Then when she was done and we were both crying she smiled at me and nudged me to go. Sandra D. already went so I was like I better. It was good. Everyone did a good job on their testimonies! I was nervous about being a leader (YCL) and meeting a bunch of new people, but it really wasn't bad. Everyone got along and people made new friendships. I just love any church activity like camp because you're just around with people that believe the same thing, and you don't get that often. All of the leaders did an amazing job and I love them all! I will totally miss a lot of people, but I got some numbers and finding people on facebook. All in all it was a good week and strengthened me to be able to step out of my comfort zone.

Okay, and now I'm gonna write our amazing song for this year written by Sister Allen.

The path we follow in this life, leads to the path that we will follow in the next. So listen to the voice that speaks to you, leadining you, giving you safe passage. This world's a frightening place at times, you may feel all alone walking down this road. Keep moving forward, don't despair, the Lord is always there, you'll know where to go.

Chorus: Oh, the places you will go! Oh, the things you will achieve, you will succeed! Oh, the mountains you will climb, there's no sky that is too high for you to reach.

These are the chapters of your life, they are filled with joy and strife, you just keep moving on. You are steadfast, immovable and strong, piercing the darkness like a Brilliant Dawn! Chorus... Today is your day! You are off and you're away, any way you choose! You know what you know, and you'll decide where to go and what's not for you! Chorus.. Your mountain is waiting, so get on your way! Your mountain is waiting, today is your day! Girl, you will move Mountains!

I totally love that song and the person that wrote it! Its amazing!!!!

Good Weekend! :D

Well last Thursday started off with going to Ravenna and going to the Happy Day School to paint murals. It was cool everyone working together. There was A LOT to paint!! Here is a picture of the part I was working on, an alphabet train.

Then Friday morning we left for Palmyra NY. The bus ride took forever to get there! I hate having to ride for a long time.. :( Then we stopped at a rest stop in Angola. They had a Mcdonalds and everything. Well they’re totally a rip of and Wayy more expensive then everywhere else. So heads up not to go there. It was funny I started talking about it and my manager knew right where I was talking about. Once we got there we went to the bookstore where they printed the book of mormon. It’s interesting that it took so long to do everything. They had to put little letters and put so many in and then put that on the paper and keep doing that. So hopefully they didn’t mess up because it looked really time consuming! Then they had to print all the copies after that, and then the binding and all that kind of stuff. We went to the Sacred Grove where Joseph received his first vision. So we walked around there for a while. I was with one other girl and we were trying to find how to get back out haha. I was smart and asked a lady and she had a map. Oh yeah :) I looked at it and was like well where are we? So she pretty much told us how to get out. It was pretty funny that the whole time my friend that I was walking with was like that’s where he received the vision and kept changing it ha. This is a picture of us on the way there. You can somewhat see how shirts they say, "stand as a witness"

We didn’t have enough time to see the cabins and everything. I don’t know when I’ll go back but I’ll definitely go see that stuff! Then later on that day we went to see the pageant at the Hill Cumorah. I didn’t know what to expect at all, but it was amazing! They had the set already set up so it was interesting to see how it would play out. The lighting made it look different all the time. I was almost falling asleep, but I still enjoyed it. Once it was over we went to the visitors center to have a testimony meeting. I felt bad because more adults talked than youth so I got up. I was debating about it, which I always do! Then the bus ride home actually went by kinda fast only 5 hours. Of course then I wasn’t that tired. I knew I wouldn’t really be able to sleep. I got a little bit of sleep when I got home Saturday morning. Saturday evening I went to Debby Baker’s and she was having a little party. That was fun we ended up going to see fire works. I was happy about that because it’s been forever since I’ve seen any.. Church was good and then work went good too! Talked to my manager for a while. I’m glad that she is so nice and everything. We get along good and if I need to change days she does all that she can. I told her I’m scared what if my next manager is mean. Haha well I’m good for now anyway. I’ve just been in a good mood and I definitely like that!! Usually it doesn’t last long, but I’m trying to be positive :D Girls camp is coming up, and that will be fun too! Any chance to somewhat get away from the real world ends up being good!

Long Time!

I've been thinking about writing a blog for a while, but I kept putting it off! I wrote a LONG one a while ago and then it got deleted so I got mad and didn't want to type another one. My summer has been going by really fast! I've been working a lot the past week. They hired two more people. I'm supposed to somewhat "train" them. I was thinking my manager was crazy I still mess everything up half the time. You live and you learn. Oh today for example I accidentially put alfredo sauce in the container for ranch. There wasn't a lot left so they just dumped it back out and didn't scrape it.. Yesterday I went on a three mile hike which wasn't bad at all.. I thought it would last forever. It didn't I had some people to entertain me :) Eww there were a bunch of dead mice though.. Oh and one that ran in front of us. Which by the way wasn't dead obviously ;) I hung out at my brothers before that. Just chilled. I really want to get a wii its fun! He doesn't have one but he has guitar hero and you can get that on wii too! I want to get my Wii sport age down. I think I'm still like 40. They always give me baseball which I suck at! I like bowling though :)

I'm now planning to try to have a positive attitude! It's actually not going half bad! Probably because no one has irritated me lately :D There was this quote that I Really Like! "Past problems are like a stream when you are standing on a bridge-the stream is rolling underneath you, and your problems have gone downstream. Regardless of how hard you try, you can;t change the past. What I want you to learn to do is look upstream. Watch for things that are coming down the river of life that you can change and control" Yeah I think that is amazing! I don't know whose talk that was and I don't feel like looking it up, but he had a lot of good things to say!! I also read some other ones. I'm coming to realize that I can't control everything or make everything go the way I want it to. I just need to learn to let things go. It is so hard though! I don't know why I obsess over things. A lot of the little things in life seem like big things to me I guess.. Like people lying about stuff or not doing what they say bothers me. How hard is it to tell the truth or do what you say you're going to? Some people take more than they recieve and I think it should at least be equal or give more than you recieve. I try to be a good person and I just don't understand how some people can be the way that they are.. I have the few people that I know I can trust, and then I have the people I'm not sure about but love anyway.

I'm glad that I found a job that all the people there are nice! A lot of the people are funny too! Its reassuring to not have someone get mad when you mess up because I definitely do! Everyone has their battles. Just have to conquer them and do what you think is right. Youth conference is next week I'm looking for an escape! Last year was fun and I'm sure this year will be too! I never really knew much about Palmyra and I just looked it up and read about some of the importances of it. So it should be a cool place to go and a learning experience. I still want to plan a road trip for the end of August I just have to think of a place to go! I've never stayed in a hotel before and I really want to! Plus one with a pool and hot tub or it wouldn't really be fun.. :D