Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer

2011-08-31T22:00:00.003-04:00

I plead with you to control your tempers, to put a smile upon your faces, which will erase anger; speak out with words of love and peace, appreciation, and respect. If you will do this, your lives will be without regret. Your marriages and family relationships will be preserved. You will be much happier. You will do greater good. You will feel a sense of peace that will be wonderful.

Yes, I definitely need to work on this more!! Everyone that knows me well knows that I am easily frustrated.. My life would be so much more peaceful if I just got over things. It is SO hard though... I did pretty good last semester because my goal was to be more patient and positive. So, when anything happened I just tried to get over it but once I started working when I got home it was all gone.. I do need to work on it more and think that it is only temporary and not to sweat the little things..
I'm good for now because I have the whole weekend and my birthday is tomorrow :) Then going to WV for the weekend. A much needed mini vacation. I definitely miss school and not so much that as the environment that I had when I was there. Being home has been wearing on me fast but I just need to stay above it. I know what I stand for and no one is going to change that so it'll be okay in the end, I guess :)

Some things I wrote down during Stake Conference last Sunday:
1. *Organize yourselves
-House of prayer, fasting, faith, learning, glory, order, a house of God
--pray always to be a conqueror to Satan
-Isaiah 58:6-7 summarized: let the oppressed go free and break every yoke
-Isaiah 58:8-9 " " : then shall thy light break forth and the Lord shall say here I am.
1 Nephi 3:7 I will go and do the things the Lord has commanded-He always prepares a way.
--Teach ye another- seek ye out the best books and learning from one another.
--Square with God, honest with ourselves and fair with others
-Keep slothfulness and uncleanness far from you
-Clean thoughts, noble purpose, willing heart.
-House of God takes constant vigilance.

2. When performance is measured, performance is improved.
-Confidence in ourselves and in God-don't be so easily distracted by the world.
--Unity will be fostered-accomplish same desires
-Meaningful goals and planning will help with what the Lord expects of us.
-To be able to make a great difference with the goals we attain.
-Mortality is filled with thorns that we have to go through to get back to the road we know we need to be on.
Hymn 319 If we united, all things we can do with an eye single to God
"If ye are not one, ye are not mine."

3. D&C 35 1-4 Prepare for the return of Jesus Christ. Love needs to be the motivation.
-Being charitable at all times- pray for the gift.
-When we are willing and trying to be Christ-like - if there is a will there is a way.
-Be willing to show others the way to come unto Him.
Isaiah 58:6-12
When we use, share and multiply what we've been given
-Virtue, uprightness, holiness, keeping all of the commandments.
-Comply with and keep those we've received- know the commandments first.
-Personal commandments to go and to do.
-Liken the scriptures to ourselves-listen for promptings.
-Person commandments- seek to be obedient and happiness will follow.

Another thing I have been thinking is one of the last things my Stake President said. Which was seek to be obedient and happiness will follow. Happiness is always there and we just need to work for it. Of course we will always have trials but we need to let trials strengthen us and not consume us or we will never progress.

RS Fireside :)

2011-08-20T12:49:00.001-04:00

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous, outgoing, brave. (But I say), who are you NOT to be? YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD! Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you, (or because you feel you are not worthy). We are all meant to shine.. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in (all of us). -- Marianne Williamson

2011-07-21T01:25:00.002-04:00

Joseph B. Wirthlin: It is wonderful to know that our Heavenly Father loves us--even with all our flaws! His love is such that even should we give up on ourselves, He never will. We see ourselves in terms of yesterday and today. Our Heavenly Father sees us in terms of forever. Although we might settle for less, Heavenly Father won't, for He sees us as the glorious beings we are capable of becoming.

-You cannot linger in temptation and expect to overcome sin.
I just thought of this saying. I remember hearing it a couple years ago and it has stuck with me. It is so true and a good reminder! Plus, it's pretty self explanatory so yeah.. :)

2011-07-10T21:39:00.002-04:00

Obedience:
-Act on the Spirit
-Desire to be Christ-like
-How good can I be?
-Doing what you're supposed to- be where you're supposed to be when you're supposed to be there
-Changing your will even if it doesn't make sense
-Act of love
-Becoming something better
-Informed-desire

-You do things because you love Christ not because you have to
-Eternal perspective-not so focused on the here and now
-Can obey without understanding why
1 Nephi 9:6 "But the Lord knoweth all things from the beginning; wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all his works among the children of men; for behold, he hath all power unto the fulfilling of all his words."
-Heavenly Father doesn't give us commandments for His benefit but for our benefit and he always blesses us with a way to achieve them.
-Small choices bring great consequences
-By small and simple things are great things come to pass

Great 4th of July weekend

2011-07-06T01:36:00.002-04:00

This weekend started off with some much needed shopping. I didn't really get too much but shopping is always fun :D Then Saturday I decided to be somewhat adventurous and float down a river on an inter-tube with my roommates. I'm not a good swimmer at all, so anything with water makes me a little iffy. I didn't fall in though, that's a plus. I did scrape my back on a rock but it didn't hurt that long. I made my roommate hold onto my raft :D but then going over a little waterfall I got turned backwards and couldn't stop and ran into a huge rock. I was glad to have the big tube then cause that didn't hurt. It was fun to get away from school and spent the day where my roommate lives and had dinner at her house. Then came back to my apartment Saturday night and then Sunday was church, food and games :) Can't go wrong there ;).

Monday was kind of interesting went swimming, sort of. It was freezing!! I watched some people jump of a bridge and that was entertaining. A guy that came with us cut his hand on a rock though.. so we took him to the ER. He had to have stitches but was good besides that. Then went to go see fireworks and roamed around there for a while and played some more games! The fireworks were really good though!!! Then it was time to go back home except it took 5 times as long because of traffic. I always wish people had a brain! Well I guess one they use anyway..

Now it's back to school but I'm optimistic about it! There's only like 2 weeks left and finals. Two of my finals are take home and two are more like opinion stuff so it shouldn't be too bad. I'm excited to go to Utah when this semester is over and then home!! :) But this weekend I know I'm going to a shooting range and canoeing. Then probably just buckling down for the rest of the semester. Then I'll be done with my first year of college!! I cannot believe how time has flown by!

2011-05-29T01:46:00.002-04:00

-Those who triumph are those who work hard without complaining and are disciplined.
-If you're not being treated with the LOVE and RESPECT that you deserve, check your "price tag" perhaps you have marked yourself down. You are the one who tells people what you're worth by what you accept, so get off the clearance rack and get behind the glass case where they keep the valuables!!
-On cable TV they have a weather channel - 24 hours of weather. We had something like that where I grew up. We called it a window
-Our lives are the only meaningful expression of what we believe and in whom we believe. And the only real wealth, for any of us, lies in our faith. -Gordon B Hinckley
-"Every one of us gets through the tough times because somebody is there, standing in the gap to close it for us." -Oprah Winfrey
-"There is noting wrong with the men possessing riches. The wrong comes when riches possess men." -Billy Graham
-"As you become more clear about who you really are, you'll be better able to decide what is best for you-the first time around." -Oprah Winfrey

Manners everyone should know obviously parents don't know them because I don't see many of these being passed on..

2011-05-10T15:27:00.001-04:00

Manner #1

When asking for something, say "Please."

Manner #2

When receiving something, say "Thank you."

Manner #3
Do not interrupt grown-ups who are speaking with each other unless there is an emergency. They will notice you and respond when they are finished talking.

Manner #4

If you do need to get somebody's attention right away, the phrase "excuse me" is the most polite way for you to enter the conversation.

Manner #5

When you have any doubt about doing something, ask permission first. It can save you from many hours of grief later.

Manner #6
The world is not interested in what you dislike. Keep negative opinions to yourself, or between you and your friends, and out of earshot of adults.

Manner #7
Do not comment on other people's physical characteristics unless, of course, it's to compliment them, which is always welcome.

Manner #8
When people ask you how you are, tell them and then ask them how they are.

Manner #9

When you have spent time at your friend's house, remember to thank his or her parents for having you over and for the good time you had.

Manner #10
Knock on closed doors -- and wait to see if there's a response -- before entering.

Manner #11
When you make a phone call, introduce yourself first and then ask if you can speak with the person you are calling.

Manner #12
Be appreciative and say "thank you" for any gift you receive. In the age of e-mail, a handwritten thank-you note can have a powerful effect.

Manner #13
Never use foul language in front of adults. Grown-ups already know all those words, and they find them boring and unpleasant.

Manner #14

Don't call people mean names.

Manner #15
Do not make fun of anyone for any reason. Teasing shows others you are weak, and ganging up on someone else is cruel.

Manner #16
Even if a play or an assembly is boring, sit through it quietly and pretend that you are interested. The performers and presenters are doing their best.

Manner #17
If you bump into somebody, immediately say "Excuse me."

Manner #18
Cover your mouth when you cough or sneeze, and don't pick your nose in public.

Manner #19

As you walk through a door, look to see if you can hold it open for someone else.

Manner #20
If you come across a parent, a teacher, or a neighbor working on something, ask if you can help. If they say "yes," do so -- you may learn something new.

Manner #21
When an adult asks you for a favor, do it without grumbling and with a smile.

Manner #22
When someone helps you, say "thank you." That person will likely want to help you again. This is especially true with teachers!

Manner #23
Use eating utensils properly. If you are unsure how to do so, ask your parents to teach you or watch what adults do.

Manner #24

Keep a napkin on your lap; use it to wipe your mouth when necessary.

Manner #25

Don't reach for things at the table; ask to have them passed.

And Nothing Shall Offend Them by: David A. Bednar

2011-05-04T23:49:00.002-04:00

Choose Not to Be Offended
When we believe or say we have been offended, we usually mean we feel insulted, mistreated, snubbed, or disrespected. And certainly clumsy, embarrassing, unprincipled, and mean-spirited things do occur in our interactions with other people that would allow us to take offense. However, it ultimately is impossible for another person to offend you or to offend me. Indeed, believing that another person offended us is fundamentally false. To be offended is a choice we make; it is not a condition inflicted or imposed upon us by someone or something else.

In the grand division of all of God’s creations, there are things to act and things to be acted upon (see 2 Nephi 2:13–14). As sons and daughters of our Heavenly Father, we have been blessed with the gift of moral agency, the capacity for independent action and choice. Endowed with agency, you and I are agents, and we primarily are to act and not just be acted upon. To believe that someone or something can make us feel offended, angry, hurt, or bitter diminishes our moral agency and transforms us into objects to be acted upon. As agents, however, you and I have the power to act and to choose how we will respond to an offensive or hurtful situation.

Thomas B. Marsh, the first President of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles in this dispensation, elected to take offense over an issue as inconsequential as milk strippings (see Deseret News, Apr. 16, 1856, 44). Brigham Young, on the other hand, was severely and publicly rebuked by the Prophet Joseph Smith, but he chose not to take offense (see Truman G. Madsen, “Hugh B. Brown—Youthful Veteran,” New Era, Apr. 1976, 16).

In many instances, choosing to be offended is a symptom of a much deeper and more serious spiritual malady. Thomas B. Marsh allowed himself to be acted upon, and the eventual results were apostasy and misery. Brigham Young was an agent who exercised his agency and acted in accordance with correct principles, and he became a mighty instrument in the hands of the Lord.

The Savior is the greatest example of how we should respond to potentially offensive events or situations.

“And the world, because of their iniquity, shall judge him to be a thing of naught; wherefore they scourge him, and he suffereth it; and they smite him, and he suffereth it. Yea, they spit upon him, and he suffereth it, because of his loving kindness and his long-suffering towards the children of men” (1 Nephi 19:9).

Through the strengthening power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ, you and I can be blessed to avoid and triumph over offense. “Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them” (Psalm 119:165).

A Latter-Day Learning Laboratory
The capacity to conquer offense may seem beyond our reach. This capability, however, is not reserved for or restricted to prominent leaders in the Church like Brigham Young. The very nature of the Redeemer’s Atonement and the purpose of the restored Church are intended to help us receive precisely this kind of spiritual strength.

Paul taught the Saints in Ephesus that the Savior established His Church “for the perfecting of the saints, for the work of the ministry, for the edifying of the body of Christ:

“Till we all come in the unity of the faith, and of the knowledge of the Son of God, unto a perfect man, unto the measure of the stature of the fulness of Christ” (Ephesians 4:12–13).

Please note the use of the active word perfecting. As described by Elder Neal A. Maxwell, the Church is not “a well-provisioned rest home for the already perfected” (“A Brother Offended,” Ensign, May 1982, 38). Rather, the Church is a learning laboratory and a workshop in which we gain experience as we practice on each other in the ongoing process of “perfecting the Saints.”

Elder Maxwell also insightfully explained that in this latter-day learning laboratory known as the restored Church, the members constitute the “clinical material” (see “Jesus, the Perfect Mentor,” Ensign, Feb. 2001, 13) that is essential for growth and development. A visiting teacher learns her duty as she serves and loves her Relief Society sisters. An inexperienced teacher learns valuable lessons as he teaches both supportive and inattentive learners and thereby becomes a more effective teacher. And a new bishop learns how to be a bishop through inspiration and by working with ward members who wholeheartedly sustain him, even while recognizing his human frailties.

Understanding that the Church is a learning laboratory helps us to prepare for an inevitable reality. In some way and at some time, someone in this Church will do or say something that could be considered offensive. Such an event will surely happen to each and every one of us—and it certainly will occur more than once. Though people may not intend to injure or offend us, they nonetheless can be inconsiderate and tactless.

You and I cannot control the intentions or behavior of other people. However, we do determine how we will act. Please remember that you and I are agents endowed with moral agency, and we can choose not to be offended.

During a perilous period of war, an exchange of letters occurred between Moroni, the captain of the Nephite armies, and Pahoran, the chief judge and governor of the land. Moroni, whose army was suffering because of inadequate support from the government, wrote to Pahoran “by the way of condemnation” (Alma 60:2) and harshly accused him of thoughtlessness, slothfulness, and neglect. Pahoran might easily have resented Moroni and his message, but he chose not to take offense. Pahoran responded compassionately and described a rebellion against the government about which Moroni was not aware. And then he responded, “Behold, I say unto you, Moroni, that I do not joy in your great afflictions, yea, it grieves my soul. … And now, in your epistle you have censured me, but it mattereth not; I am not angry, but do rejoice in the greatness of your heart” (Alma 61:2, 9).

One of the greatest indicators of our own spiritual maturity is revealed in how we respond to the weaknesses, the inexperience, and the potentially offensive actions of others. A thing, an event, or an expression may be offensive, but you and I can choose not to be offended—and to say with Pahoran, “it mattereth not.”

Two Invitations
I conclude my message with two invitations.

Invitation #1
I invite you to learn about and apply the Savior’s teachings about interactions and episodes that can be construed as offensive.

“Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy.

“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you. …

“For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?

“And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so?

“Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect” (Matthew 5:43–44, 46–48).

Interestingly, the admonition to “be ye therefore perfect” is immediately preceded by counsel about how we should act in response to wrongdoing and offense. Clearly, the rigorous requirements that lead to the perfecting of the Saints include assignments that test and challenge us. If a person says or does something that we consider offensive, our first obligation is to refuse to take offense and then communicate privately, honestly, and directly with that individual. Such an approach invites inspiration from the Holy Ghost and permits misperceptions to be clarified and true intent to be understood.

Invitation #2
Many of the individuals and families who most need to hear this message about choosing not to be offended are probably not participating with us in conference today. I suspect all of us are acquainted with members who are staying away from church because they have chosen to take offense—and who would be blessed by coming back.

Will you please prayerfully identify a person with whom you will visit and extend the invitation to once again worship with us? Perhaps you could share a copy of this talk with her or him, or you may prefer to discuss the principles we have reviewed today. And please remember that such a request should be conveyed lovingly and in meekness—and not in a spirit of self-righteous superiority and pride.

As we respond to this invitation with faith in the Savior, I testify and promise that doors will open, our mouths will be filled, the Holy Ghost will bear witness of eternal truth, and the fire of testimony will be rekindled.

As His servant, I echo the words of the Master when He declared, “These things have I spoken unto you, that ye should not be offended” (John 16:1). I witness the reality and divinity of a living Savior and of His power to help us avoid and overcome offense. In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen.

2011-04-21T15:22:00.002-04:00

I guess it hasn't been that long since I posted something.. it feels like it has been longer. Well my first semester was over a couple of weeks ago. I got 2 A's an A-, 2 B+s and a B. I was pretty happy with that. I was home for a week and I got to spend time with a lot of family and friends. I was definitely going through withdrawls.. I didn't think I would miss home as much as I did. Now, this week I started my second semester. I'm trying to get Teacher Academy I took my senior year to count as a class I have to take. I talked to a guy about it and is supposed to be letting me know next week but I know the rest of my schedule I'm just not sure whether that will be on it or not.. hopefully not.

M- Book of Mormon 10:15-11:15, Math 11:30-12:30, Child Development 2-3

T-Personal Health and Wellness 10:15-11:15, Advanced Writing 6:15-9pm

W- History & Philosophy of Ed(maybe) 7:45-8:45, 10:15-11:15, 2-3

Th 10:15-11:15

F 7:45-8:45, 11:30-12:30, 2-3

It's kind of good that I got the Personal Health and Wellness teacher that I got because now I have to exercise for 3 hrs per week and atleast 3 days and atleast 30 minutes each time or that's 1/4 of my grade that I lose. Obviously I'll be doing it because I don't want a crappy grade :)

I'm happy this semester that I moved and have a kitchen now it's pretty nice :) I also have a TV now so that's kind of a distraction but I still watched stuff on hulu last semester so I guess it's not that bad. I got back in ID on Monday and have yet to unpack everything.. I should probably do that :D

2011-03-16T02:02:00.002-04:00

Gordon B. Hinckley's book Standing For Something
-Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me
-One of the greatest challenges we face in our hurried, self directed lives is to follow this counsel of the Master, to take the time and make the effort to care for others, to develop and exercise the one quality that would enable us to change the lives of others-what the scriptures call charity. We tend to think charity as donations to a homeless shelter or a check written to a favorite instution that dispenses funds to those in need. But best defined, charity is that pure love exemplified by Jesus Christ. It embraces kindness, a reaching out to lift and help, the sharing of one's bread, if need be.
-Tremendous happiness and peace of mind are the results of loving service to others. Nobody can live fully and happily who lives only unto himself or herself.
-It is as we serve, as we take time to express interest and concern in someone other than ourselves, that we are more likely to gain a glimpse of who we really are and what we can ultimately become.
-In our day, those found in dishonesty aren't put to death, but something within them dies. Conscience chokes, character withers, self-respect vanishes, integrity dies. How cheaply some men and omen sell their good names!
-Without honesty, our lives dissintegrate into ugliness, chaos, and a lack of any kind of security and confidence.
-Without personal integrity, there can be no confidence. Without confidence, there can be no prospect of permanent success.
-Honesty is the keystone that holds any organization together.
-Dishonesty does not pay-not now, not ever.

Just some things that stuck out to me while reading. Not finished yet, there will be more to come :)

no teacher but still accurate

2011-02-10T16:45:00.001-05:00

Careers for ISTJ Personality Types

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Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

ISTJs generally have the following traits:

Value tradition, security, and peaceful living
Will work long and hard to fulfill duties
Can be depended on to follow through on tasks
Loyal and faithful
Stable, practical and down-to-earth
Family-minded
Dislike doing things which don't make sense to them
Dislike abstract theory, unless they see the practical application
Natural leaders
Prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when necessary
Extremely observant, they take in facts via their senses and store them internally
Vast, rich inner store of facts which they rely on to understand problems which they encounter in their lives
Profound respect for facts and concrete information
Make decisions objectively, applying logic and rational thinking
Dislike change, unless they are shown it's benefit in a concrete way
Have strong opinions about the way things should be done
Appreciate structured, orderly environments
Have very high standards for their own behavior and the behavior of others
Not naturally in-tune with other people's feelings
Able to accomplish almost anything if they put their minds to it
Community minded "good citizens"
ISTJs have one character trait which puts them at a definite advantage in terms of career success - Perserverance. An ISTJ can do almost anything that they have decided to do. However, there are areas in which they will function more happily and naturally. An ISTJ will do best in a career in which they can use their excellent organizational skills and their powers of concentration to create order and structure. ISTJs seem to fit extremely well into the Management and Executive layer of the corporate business world.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ISTJ. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the ISTJ:

Business Executives, Administrators and Managers
Accountants and Financial Officers
Police and Detectives
Judges
Lawyers
Medical Doctors / Dentists
Computer Programmers, Systems Analysts, and Computer Specialists
Military Leaders

Does this sound like me? :)

2011-02-10T16:40:00.000-05:00

The Duty Fulfiller
As an ISTJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things rationally and logically.

ISTJs are quiet and reserved individuals who are interested in security and peaceful living. They have a strongly-felt internal sense of duty, which lends them a serious air and the motivation to follow through on tasks. Organized and methodical in their approach, they can generally succeed at any task which they undertake.

ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are "good citizens" who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun - especially at family or work-related gatherings.

ISTJs tend to believe in laws and traditions, and expect the same from others. They're not comfortable with breaking laws or going against the rules. If they are able to see a good reason for stepping outside of the established mode of doing things, the ISTJ will support that effort. However, ISTJs more often tend to believe that things should be done according to procedures and plans. If an ISTJ has not developed their Intuitive side sufficiently, they may become overly obsessed with structure, and insist on doing everything "by the book".

The ISTJ is extremely dependable on following through with things which he or she has promised. For this reason, they sometimes get more and more work piled on them. Because the ISTJ has such a strong sense of duty, they may have a difficult time saying "no" when they are given more work than they can reasonably handle. For this reason, the ISTJ often works long hours, and may be unwittingly taken advantage of.

The ISTJ will work for long periods of time and put tremendous amounts of energy into doing any task which they see as important to fulfilling a goal. However, they will resist putting energy into things which don't make sense to them, or for which they can't see a practical application. They prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when the situation demands it. They like to be accountable for their actions, and enjoy being in positions of authority. The ISTJ has little use for theory or abstract thinking, unless the practical application is clear.

ISTJs have tremendous respect for facts. They hold a tremendous store of facts within themselves, which they have gathered through their Sensing preference. They may have difficulty understanding a theory or idea which is different from their own perspective. However, if they are shown the importance or relevance of the idea to someone who they respect or care about, the idea becomes a fact, which the ISTJ will internalize and support. Once the ISTJ supports a cause or idea, he or she will stop at no lengths to ensure that they are doing their duty of giving support where support is needed.

The ISTJ is not naturally in tune with their own feelings and the feelings of others. They may have difficulty picking up on emotional needs immediately, as they are presented. Being perfectionists themselves, they have a tendency to take other people's efforts for granted, like they take their own efforts for granted. They need to remember to pat people on the back once in a while.

ISTJs are likely to be uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others. However, their strong sense of duty and the ability to see what needs to be done in any situation usually allows them to overcome their natural reservations, and they are usually quite supporting and caring individuals with the people that they love. Once the ISTJ realizes the emotional needs of those who are close to them, they put forth effort to meet those needs.

The ISTJ is extremely faithful and loyal. Traditional and family-minded, they will put forth great amounts of effort at making their homes and families running smoothly. They are responsible parents, taking their parenting roles seriously. They are usually good and generous providers to their families. They care deeply about those close to them, although they usually are not comfortable with expressing their love. The ISTJ is likely to express their affection through actions, rather than through words.

ISTJs have an excellent ability to take any task and define it, organize it, plan it, and implement it through to completion. They are very hard workers, who do not allow obstacles to get in the way of performing their duties. They do not usually give themselves enough credit for their achievements, seeing their accomplishments simply as the natural fulfillment of their obligations.

ISTJs usually have a great sense of space and function, and artistic appreciation. Their homes are likely to be tastefully furnished and immaculately maintained. They are acutely aware of their senses, and want to be in surroundings which fit their need for structure, order, and beauty.

Under stress, ISTJs may fall into "catastrophe mode", where they see nothing but all of the possibilities of what could go wrong. They will berate themselves for things which they should have done differently, or duties which they failed to perform. They will lose their ability to see things calmly and reasonably, and will depress themselves with their visions of doom.

In general, the ISTJ has a tremendous amount of potential. Capable, logical, reasonable, and effective individuals with a deeply driven desire to promote security and peaceful living, the ISTJ has what it takes to be highly effective at achieving their chosen goals - whatever they may be.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Introverted Sensing
Auxiliary: Extraverted Thinking
Tertiary: Introverted Feeling
Inferior: Extraverted Intuition

Exams, Exams, Exams

2011-02-09T01:32:00.001-05:00

I had 3 exams last week and one on Monday. Everybody made it out that you study for hours and still fail. I didn't study too much and got an 80, 84, 85 and 86. I do need to start working harder it's getting that time when I don't want to do anything anymore.. 2 months from today I'll be home for 10 days and I'm excited for that I miss people. I went to a hot springs on Saturday for the first time. It was really hot! Plus my skin smelled kinda gross but that's what a bunch of body wash is good for :) Then there was a dance Saturday night that was a lot of fun. I actually watched the super bowl for the first time Sunday, kinda. I barely watched it or knew what was going on anyway. I was texting and on Facebook. I did like the beaver commercial it was cute.

I got an email with a story that I really liked:
A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year-old grandson.
The old man's hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered.
The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather's shaky hands and
failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor.
When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the tablecloth.
The son and daughter-in-law became irritated with the mess.
'We must do something about father,' said the son.
'I've had enough of his spilled milk, noisy eating, and food on the floor.'
So the husband and wife set a small table in the corner.
There, Grandfather ate alone while the rest of the family enjoyed dinner.
Since Grandfather had broken a dish or two, his food was served in a wooden bowl.
When the family glanced in Grandfather's direction, sometimes he had a tear in his eye as he sat alone.
Still, the only words the couple had for him were sharp admonitions when he dropped a fork or spilled food.
The four-year-old watched it all in silence.
One evening before supper, the father noticed his son playing with wood scraps on the floor.
He asked the child sweetly, 'What are you making?' Just as sweetly, the boy responded,
'Oh, I am making a little bowl for you and Mama to eat your food in when I grow up. '

The four-year-old smiled and went back to work.
The words so struck the parents so that they were speechless. Then tears started to stream down their cheeks.. Though no word was spoken, both knew what must be done.
That evening the husband took Grandfather's hand and gently led him back to the family table.
For the remainder of his days he ate every meal with the family. And for some reason,
neither husband nor wife seemed to care any longer when a fork was dropped, milk spilled, or the tablecloth soiled.
On a positive note, I've learned that, no matter what happens, how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles four things:
a rainy day,the elderly, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.
I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as making a 'life.'
I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands.You need to be able to throw something back sometimes..
I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you.
But, if you focus on your family, your friends, the needs of others, your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you.
I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.
I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.
I've learned that every day, you should reach out and touch someone.
People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

little tidbits I've written down

2011-01-24T23:57:00.002-05:00

-And he who receiveth all things with thankfulness shall be made glorious.

-If a person gains more knowledge and intelligence in this life through his diligence and obedience than another, he will have so much more the advantage in the world to come.

-The glory of God is intelligence, in other words, light and truth. When men follow the light of their knowledge will always be well used.

-You can be wise and happy or stupid and miserable.

-Charity never faileth.

-Let us not dwell on the negative

-Radiate the light of the gospel

- Love the Lord: knowing about and knowing are two different things

-Live the commandments: give meaningful service, find answers in the scriptures.

-Line yourself up with the best spouse: what you would like to be and be that, easy to live with, easy to love.

-Light a fire under yourself: actively engaged in a good cause. Don't be satisfied with not doing enough. Being obedient to the commandments will make you happy.

-Persist in all things that are good and noble.

-Do what is right

-Let us all speak kind words

-Stay safely on the Lords side of the line, a tug of war between the Lord and the adversary

-Oh say what is true

-True christianity is love in action

-Prayer is the souls sincere desire

-Wickedness never was happiness

-Praise to the man who communes with Jehovah

-Stand ye in holy places and be not moved

-I need thee every hour

-Lengthen your stride

-Dedication, how great thou art

-What manner of man ought you to be? Even as I am.

-Let us all love one another

-Have I done any good in the world today?

-Look for the best in people

-Do your best

-Be persistent in things that are good and noble, dedicated to the gospel of Jesus Christ

First time away from home

2011-01-19T00:43:00.002-05:00

I had to write a paper in my writing and reasoning class about a person experience. So, for everyone that has been asking here is a more in depth detail of what has happened. Plus, it's due friday so if you see something wrong before then let me know! haha :)

The first time I had ever been away from home occurred less than two weeks ago. I had never had to say goodbye to my parents knowing I would be away for an extended amount of time. I had never been to an airport, so the entire airplane process was very unfamiliar to me, and the fact that I was in a town that seemed foreign to me didn’t help. BYU-Idaho was my top choice for the school I wanted to attend. Little did I know that I would feel the way I did when I began to venture out on my own.
I graduated from high school in June of 2010 hoping that I would be prepared for college in January of 2011. Waiting seven months to start school again seemed strange to me because I wasn’t used to long breaks. The longest break I had ever had form school wasn’t even three months. However, the time I spent out of school and working gave me time to prepare myself a bit and gave me a little taste of the “real world.” Most high schools tell their students that they are preparing them for college, but in my opinion, they don’t.
High School encouraged me to go to college to become successful but looking back now the classes I took and the teachers I had didn’t prepare me very much. High School was really easy and didn’t take much work to be successful. College is also different than High School because most students like myself was still living with their parents and not really out on their own. I chose a drastic change going 2,000 miles away from home but that was my decision and I was sticking to it.

When I left the airport in Cleveland, Ohio I didn’t know what to anticipate. I found myself sitting on an airplane for the first time more nervous than I had ever felt in my life. I debated on getting off the plane but knew that I had to toughen up and get on my way. I had a layover in Las Vegas and I had never walked through an airport before so the whole process was pretty new to me. I was surprised at all the random stores they have in airports and things that I saw; a jewelry store, a store that only sold crocs, they even had slot machines. I thought to myself, really? What am I getting myself in to? People always called me sheltered and boy were they right, but I was okay with that fact until I had to experience it all on my own.
Fortunately, I met a lot of nice people on my journey throughout the day and I was able to find everything just fine. I think that the people that work at the airports find it fun making you walk half way across the airport to find your next flight. I maneuvered my way through the airports by looking at the giant walls of computer screens and I managed to find the gate for my next flight. My flight to Las Vegas was the worst because it was four hours that seemed to drag on forever. Plus, the farther west I got, the earlier it got so it seemed like I wasn’t getting anywhere.
Once I got to the gate to go to Salt Lake City I checked with the attendant to make sure I was in the right place even though the sign said a different city. She said I was in the right place and ripped up my ticket and gave me a different one. I then found out I would be sitting waiting for a while because my plane was running late. I was excited to get a window seat on my flight to Salt Lake City to be able to see the beautiful mountains as we were landing. I had never been in a valley that I saw mountains around me everywhere I looked before. I had always made fun of people for never seeing snow, but I guess I had never really seen mountains in the winter time either. I was getting anxious for the final part of my trip to arrive in Idaho. In a new place I was ready to get to campus and see what everything was going to be like.
I soon figured out Rexburg was a lot different from my hometown. Roads were different and it took me a while before I could navigate myself to the places I had to go. The first time I ventured through town I got lost. Note to self: don’t call my parents when I’m lost, they don’t take it well. It turns out S 2nd W and W 2nd S make a big difference. In Ohio the roads go East or West or North and South and don’t have the same name like this road did. Even when I got to campus and had a map I was still confused but with time I knew where I was going, thankfully. A lesson that is usually hard to accept is that everything doesn’t always come easily regardless of how much you would like it to.
First day of classes went pretty well and I wasn’t too shocked to see that I already had homework; I knew I was not in High School anymore. I learned quickly that getting my work done shortly after it was assigned would be the best way to go. Procrastinating always gets the better of people especially when they have a big workload. The first week of classes went well and I wasn’t clueless as to what was going on yet, always a plus!
I had gotten to know my roommates by this time and not too many other people. Finding out that my roommates were easy to get along with and live with made things a lot easier. I met people here and there but that was one thing that seemed hard to conquer, nothing seemed to click. It seems like all of the people that I met were married and lived off campus. I got pretty homesick and started questioning what I wanted to do. I asked myself if I would get over this little bump in the road or would I find out that what I thought I wanted wasn’t really what I wanted at all.
I knew with time everything would come together as it always did. As people always say time will tell. I felt much better when I found out that my former Stake Young Women president was in town visiting her daughter. We got together for a couple of days while she was visiting and it made me feel much better to see a familiar face from home. After I got to know more people it made me feel more confident and that I belonged here, knowing that there were others that felt the same way I did. My first night at Family Home Evening helped with meeting people, also. Most of the people in my family are in their first semester and some in their second but we are all basically in the same boat.
Even though things get tough at first it doesn’t mean to give up and go back to what is easy. Stepping out of my comfort zone helped me so much and trying to find the best of my situation. It is so helpful to pray for guidance and call upon friends or family to help during a rough time. The scriptures are also a good tool to use for reassurance. A scripture that always helps me is, “Ask and ye shall receive; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.” Always knowing that I have a loving Heavenly Father that is always there for me regardless is the most reassurance I could need, and that through the Holy Ghost I can receive guidance of what I should be doing and remain on the right path.

school

2011-01-07T19:23:00.002-05:00

Wow, I did not realize that I hadn't blogged in so long! I'll start with the more recent things. I have almost been in Idaho for a week now. I left New Years day and flew to Las Vegas, and then to Salt Lake and took a shuttle from there to Rexburg. Classes started Wednesday. I've had all of the classes I'm going to have now. Friday is somehow my biggest day unfortunately.. I have classes until 12:30 on Tuesday's and Thursday's and until 4:15 M W and F. I'm taking 16 credits and it seems a little overwhelming now but hopefully I can keep it all together.

I'm taking American Foundations, Writing and Reasoning Foundations, Science Foundations, Book of Mormon, Science Foundations, Geography for Elementary Teachers and the History of Art and Culture. I was most worried about the writing and reasoning one because it's a 3 hour class and only on Friday's. It actually didn't seem to drag on forever so that was good. The teacher was pretty funny and she's my only female teacher. There's a lot of homework but I'm gonna have to figure out a schedule and keep with it. Most of the homework I'm going to have for the semester is already posted so we'll see if I get that all situated or if I just try to do it in between classes like I have been doing. I'm thinking about coming home for spring break now. I didn't plan on it before because I didn't think it was that long but I could probably be home for a week and that sounds really nice right now. I've talked to my parents every day since I got here.

2010-09-26T21:01:00.002-04:00

What to say, what to say? This summer hasn't been the most eventful but it hasn't been all bad either.. Its over now and its already about to be October which is a big shock! Only 3 more months before I'm out of here heading to Idaho :) It's just scary that I don't have everything situated yet.. I guess they're having some issue with their computers or doing something that is putting a hold up on things.. It'll all get situated eventually though and hopefully soon so I can stop worrying about it! I've been working at McDonalds this summer which has been alright. I never thought I would want to go back to school so much though!! I'm just nervous about all the work it will entail.. High school was pretty easy to go through and not have to do too much. I guess I got the feeling in Teacher Academy cause that was A LOT of work but that was only one class.. I guess I'll have to discipline myself! I'm just not looking forward to the basic classes it'll just seem like a repeat of school and I didn't like school in the first place.. I'm just looking forward to the teaching aspect of it :) and that subject not the rest :)

Well, I went to the Relief Society Broadcast last night and it was pretty good :) I had minestrone for the first time yesterday too! It was pretty good too but it was funny someone asked me if I was not eating certain parts of it on purpose and I was like can you tell? Beans and carrots not for me.. :D Anyway, my first RS broadcast because I'm an adult and all now :) I really liked that it targeted charity and not judging others. It was so funny there was a little joke in it. A woman is having breakfast with her husband and looks out the window at their neighbors house and the laundry was our and the wife said she doesn't know how to do laundry its still dirty!! & she continued to say this every time their neighbors laundry was out. Then, one morning she noticed that their laundry was clean and she was like oh look she learned how to clean her clothes. Her husband was like this morning........ I washed the windows! Hopefully I did that justice but it really shows that everyone just sits and there and judges others on any and everything when they're probably no better than the other person or even know the other person. I know I'm not perfect at it as no one is but it really gets old when all someone wants to do is run their mouth about nothing. It brought up a quote from Mother Teresa that said if you judge people, you have no time to love them. When you're being judgemental you're not thinking in a positive way or being loving to others so that is definitely true! We have way better things that we can be doing with out time. Which brings up charity. Charity is the pure love of Christ, charity never faileth. It is through us that so many works are brought forward and how we help others through the Lord. He can't just come down here to help people so he uses us to help others but when we're selfish and don't want to help others that's not really the point. Just thinking about our own needs and not those around us is very selfish and a flaw in a lot of people it seems. Its pretty sad actually but the smallest things to us can be something big to someone else. Even if all we can do is a little bit its more than nothing.

Just some of my thoughts at the moment! :)

Last Year if Girl's Camp!!!

2010-06-25T23:35:00.003-04:00

So much to say about Girl's Camp! I figured out like a couple of days before that Sister Lunnen was in charge of Girl's Camp so I knew it was gonna be amazing right then :) Started on Monday I didn't get lost unlike last year it's actually pretty easy to get there. It was a good first day hanging out with the YCL's (youth camp leaders). We had a lot of fun together and I really like the idea of us having a day to ourselves to just bond more. Then it was raining Tuesday morning but thankfully stopped when people started arriving :) I don't know if I'll get every day right but I'm gonna try! The first day we made magnets in craft. We had hour of power which we talked about The Strength For Youth pamphlet and tried to remember all the different topics in there with clues. I didn't do the greatest which tells me I need to read it again! We worked on the 3rd years certification that day and actually got pretty much all of it done. Surprising how much we can figure out ;)

I was conducting for President Kirk that night. He talked to us about parables. We talked about one that the Lord told men that they would all receive the same but some worked an hour and some worked all day long and the men that worked all day long felt they deserved more than they were given. Although, it was the promise that they would receive the same. We receive more blessings when we endure things well rather than complaining about what we think we should have. We are not the knower of all things.. There is a plan for us whether we like it or not but I know it won't be all bad there will be more good! :D He also talked about another parable. One man received 5 talents, one man received 2 and one man received 1. The men with 5 and 2 talents doubled there talents and went back to the Lord and said you have given us 5 or 2 and we have developed 5, 2 more talents. The one that only received one talent was afraid and buried his talent and didn't develop any more talents. The men that doubled their talents and continued to learn and develop more were rewarded but the one that hid his was not. Not everyone has a million talents but we should not hide what we can do and refuse to help others. I'll let ya know when I find something I'm really good at but I'm sure there are things I don't notice and using those and not trying to change myself will help others. Life can always be worse and we need to realize what we have in front of us and how lucky we truly are. That we are special and loved.

Wow, a lot has happened. Tuesday still. We did Night at the Oscars. Each year, 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th were assigned a fairy tale to act out and props. We got the 3 little bears. I totally didn't really know this story so I was like okay lets see how this goes. It totally brought out another side to a lot of the girls that I hadn't seen yet. It went really well and the girls had a lot of fun doing it. It was so funny though because we weren't supposed to have phones and I was looking at one of the leaders phones because she had a cool one. A leader yelled my name and I was like "It's not my phone!!!" Haha she wasn't even talking about the phone she was gonna tell me that I did a good job conducting I was like oopss.. We chatted though and it was all good! Oh, plus our YCL leaders I took chairs for our Skit and one of them was our leader's and she got it the next day and had a bunch of bugs crawl all over from it.. The other leader drove another YCL and me to the gate to let people in in the morning and I brought orange juice with me. I forgot all about it and left it in her cup holder and she put her phone in her cup holder the next day to charge it.. Funny, but bad. Thankfully it wasn't broken!!!

Now to Wednesday! We went on a 3 mile hike! Wow I needed something like that to tell me I'm out of shape!!! It wasn't all that bad though. I don't remember hearing any of my 3rd years complaining about it. This was the somewhat rough day for me because I was so tired from not sleeping the day before. I went to take a nap during free time but then a storm came and we had to go down to the lodge. Then a couple other things... You can't stay in a bad mood too long at camp though :) Crafts were washers that we hammered letters into and colored in and made necklaces out of. Really not as easy as it sounds. Mine looks alright. Hour of power was a little different because of the rain and everything but it made me think of things I really never thought of before. I remember that during it I'm just trying to remember details!! We talked about Liahona's and we made a necklace with one on it. We talked about in Nephi when Lehi received a Liahona that helped guide them. It only worked when they were faithful though. Like us having the Holy Ghost but we can only have it as a companion when we are worthy. Like the Liahona the Holy Ghost help guide us. The scriptures help guide us as well as our Prophet. We did a team building that we all layed down shoulder to shoulder and two rows with our heads by each other and put our hand up to carry people across. Wednesday was Bishop's night, We had a little competition with our Bishop's to recieve information about a Prophet from the scriptures that we would have to describe. We got Joshua. I learned more about him because I didn't know that story.. That's where our camp theme came from though. Joshua 1:9 "Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest." After that we got to go have snacks with our Bishop and Wards. Oh gosh it was hilarious. I guess Wednesday night Catherine, who I was sharing a tent with asked me to borrow my phone cause hers wasn't working right and I was totally dead asleep and don't even remember waking up but I guess when she asked me I looked right at her and was like I don't know. Then she told me I said something else too but kindof in a mean way. haha I totally wasn't awake.

Thursday. We had another team building activity that was pretty fun. We all had to get in a circle and pass a hula hoop around our necks without using our hands. I must say the group I was in won both times :) We visited the Johnson home first. I think that was the second time I had been there but it may have been the third. Every time visiting a historical site you learn something new that you didn't learn the last time or that you didn't remember. I learned a lot more about Joseph Smith than I knew before camp. If only we could all be like him! I don't know many people that could be beaten, tar and feathered and still preach the next day and continue on with what he had to do. He did so much so that we could have some of the things we have today like the Book of Mormon. Hour of Power on Thursday was making armor. Each armor has a purpose. What, I couldn't tell you but we did it :) Ours looked really good and we had to figure out what each one meant and label it on our armor. Then for the first time at camp I tried out the slip and slide. It was really fun! One of the 3rd years slid all the way to the end so then I was determined to do it too! Just needed a bigger running start :D I really liked crafts that day. We had jars and we chose stickers of different things to put on them and then sprayed them with this white stuff but that you could still see through the jars. You could put a handle on it but I just used the wire and put it around the top of the jar with beads on it. They have candles in them too. We had dinner with our years and made dessert in dutch ovens that all turned out a little funky.. The pizza was good though I was totally wanting pizza all week! The total best thing about any Girl's Camp is the testimony meeting! I love it! Now, the past two years have been good but this year I was amazed with what some of the girls said. The girls varied from 12-18 and was definitely spiritual. I went up of course I had to I couldn't resist :) Plus the majority of the 3rd years went up and the other two YCL's that were over them :) Then everyone pretty much stayed up late that night. Each ward has a camp director and ours was Anna. It was pretty last minute but she got everything situated quickly and efficiently :) We chatted a while after testimony meeting til we wanted to go to bed haha.

Friday morning as well with Wednesday and Thursday we had solo scripture study. I was conducting this and had to share a scripture. I chose Doctrine and Covenants 121:45 "Let thy bowels also be full with charity towards all men, and to the household of faith, and let virtue garnish thy thoughts unceasingly; then shall thy confidence wax strong in the presence of God; and the doctrine of the priesthood shall distil upon thy soul as the dews from heaven." I wasn't sure what I was going to read but I was looking through D&C because Joseph Smith wrote them and just the area we were in. I was looking in my Young Women personal progress book to try to find a scripture and I found this one and it totally worked. Charity is always so, so important. Plus at camp everyone is always willing to help one another and it's great! I just wanted to remind everyone how important it is to carry that on when everyone goes home. Then we had to tear our camps down and do the chores for the day. Pretty sad to say bye to people but will hopefully stay in touch with most of them :)

I was just so glad to go to Girl's Camp. It was better than I ever anticipated. I have somewhat been in a rut lately but it has left me with more knowledge than I had before and more friendships. It's always a good place to be with others that share the same values and beliefs and I totally grab onto that as often as possible, I love that feeling! Everyone had told me that I'm going to love BYU-I. I am so looking forward to it and for that same reason. Wow I spelled receive wrong like 7 times!! I guess I said that a lot. Now I before E except after C. I guess that is somewhat useful ;)

2010-05-27T14:25:00.001-04:00

HIGH SCHOOL HAS ENDED!!!!!! My last day was Tuesday and I just had 2 exams in the morning and I was done by 8:30 :) Except before leaving I forgot to turn in my Alg 2 notebook and textbook.. :( Had to go back to turn that in today. This friday is graduation rehearsal and the senior picnic and then next friday is graduation!! I'm so happy for this year to be over. It's been a great year and all but still. Tuesday in teacher academy we all had to write valediction speeches (goodbye speeches) plus brought in food so that was a good way to end it. It was good to hear what everyone had to say.

Some of the things I said were: I started off this year not really knowing what to expect. Before last August I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do as a career but luckily Teacher Academy helped me answer that question. I never expected to learn as much as I did from Teacher Academy or from my internships as I did. I can't say that I have any complaints about this class and I'm really glad I chose it.

How could I sum up what I've learned? That could take ages! From always being the student I never really thought about all that a teacher does and all the preparation they have to do. It just never occurred to me to think about those things. After talking in class about what makes a good teacher good it made me look at teachers in a different light, appreciating what they do and of course sometimes thinking what they could do better. I never really cared for school but being on the other side of the spectrum and being as a teacher was much different. I looked forward to my internships and enjoyed them a lot.

In my teacher academy class we accomplished so much. 24 essays, 11 chapters, 6 internships and lessons. We worked together in class often and scaffolded off one another. It was a lot of work and I totally wasn't used to it but I'm still really glad I did it!

I interned in 1st, 4th, 5th, 8th grade and special education with 5th and 8th grade. I realized that 1st grade was too young and 8th grade was too old for my preference. I liked 4th and 5th grade the best. Each internship has brought different experiences. It really helped to have experienced teachers there to ask questions about anything I was thinking about. Having the feedback they gave me on a weekly basis and for my lessons helped me to know what I did well on and what I could do to improve. Using that feedback to correct problems for the future definitely helped me to be more well rounded and learn what it takes to be a teacher from others perspectives. I could also definitely say that my Teacher Academy teacher knew her stuff and was a great example to us of a good teacher. I said in my speech that she never let us break the rules but she was a good example of what we should be, which is true. :) I can't stand when someone is meant to be looked up to so much and they do not do what they should. Be an example!!!! Just my opinion :)

On a different note, I walked a lot today. Went on the path in Austinburg with some people from church and then met my brother again at some river thing in Jefferson. We walked all around there for a while too. Plus driving around. It's always nice when it's so hot out to drive around with the windows down :D

Plus, I was thinking today I hate how disrespectful people are nowadays. Ha teaching good idea right? It'll be alright though. I just don't understand how people can let others treat them and speak to them the way they do.. I'll tell you right now when I'm a parent there is noooooo way that is going to happen! Not that people do, but I don't let anyone talk to me like some people do and especially not your child. I guess there are a million things that I can't comprehend why people do but I can say that I won't be like them.

Tuesdays with Morrie

2010-04-24T11:58:00.004-04:00

Tuesdays with Morrie was such a good book! I read it in a day! It made me think a lot though. I found some quotes while reading that I really liked:

"Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do; Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it; Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others; Don't assume it's too late to get involved." These are all things that most people have to work on. Most people can't get over things from the past but that takes time and doesn't happen overnight.. Plus people hold grudges over the littlest things for so long it's pointless. Those that do not forgive others in him lies the greater sin. (goes something like that) Just saying :)

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

The first part we just need to decide what's the best use of our time and which will benefit us more. Usually, not what I really want to do.. After reading this book and seeing how well Morrie took everything he had to go through and his sickness it just makes me think I have so many things to be thankful for. Its so easy to just focus on the bad and not realize what you have in front of you. I'm horrible at that.. :( Plus letting little things work me up and just put me in a bad mood. This book has really made me see a lot of things I want to change about myself.

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

I don't really see the things I do as purposeful or meaningful but I think going into teaching will do that and be for a good cause. Plus I devote myself to others and do the best I can for others :) A quote that I actually live up to :) I don't waste my time on unrealistic goals or something that I can't reach.

"Look, no matter where you live, the biggest defect we human beings have is our shortsightedness. We don't see what we could be. We should be looking at our potential, stretching ourselves into everything we can become."

I think I look more towards the future than the here and now. I'm always waiting for the next thing in life rather than appreciating what I have now. I just always think the next part of my life will be better which is not the best way to think about it. I'll never be happy if I'm just waiting for something else. I'll try to endure school and "try" not to rush through it as fast as possible. It's just never been my thing I'm just ready to leave and do what I really want to do. I have to get over the things that I don't have control over but that's never been my strength, I like to be in control.

2010-03-12T19:58:00.002-05:00

Its about time for a new post :) In my last post I talked about my acceptance to BYU-I. Can't remember when I got the letter but I'm going for the Winter/Spring Track. I start January 4th and go to July. I think I like that a lot better than going for the typical year. I get to have a long break after High School before I start :D hehe. Plus I'll have whenever I finish in July through December off. I'll also be home for the holiday's and won't have to worry about going back and forth!

Now, I'm done with my 4th internship that was 8th grade. I'm still saying I liked 4th and 5th grade the best. For my lesson in 8th grade I wanted to do debates and luckily that's what she usually did. I didn't know I just knew that I liked debates and I liked the idea ;) It was a big research thing the class just worked with a couple other people and used what they already knew. Everything worked out really well, actually. I was pretty happy about that. The one class that debated "should olympic athletes be drug tested" got a little crazy about it because everyone was trying to say there opinion but other than that everything was pretty organized.

My next internship is Special Education. The teacher I'm interning with goes to different classrooms. He's gonna be in 8th grade math and science. I had those teachers so atleast I'll have that, but I don't really like those subjects that much.. He also goes to 5th grade social studies I like that idea :) Plus, already working with 5th and 8th grade I should somewhat know some of them so its not like starting all over with new people.

Not much is new besides that.. Basically done with Young Women personal progress. Just focusing on school and trying not to let senioritis get to me but it is a little..

ACCEPTANCE!!!!

2010-02-09T21:04:00.003-05:00

I am so EXCITED right now!!! :) Just got my acceptance letter for BYU-Idaho. I thought I was going to have to wait in agony for a few more weeks but luckily not! I've been pretty stressed lately trying to think about everything I still need to do but this just made my day! I almost got up and started jumping up and down but I didn't. Happy to know where I'm going and that its the place that I really want to go. I know everything else will fall into place. I'll miss people but I know this is the right thing and can't wait!!!

I was just saying today how I've never really liked school and this year isn't any better. I really like my internship and don't miss days that I go there. I know teaching is what I want to do, also. I've liked 4th and 5th grade I start 8th grade tomorrow. We'll see how that turns out. I just want to know I made a difference in other peoples life and not just a class someone couldn't wait to be done with. I appreciated my elementary and middle school teachers more. I think they actually had a variety of ways to teach instead of doing the same thing everyday and not mixing it up. Taking Teacher Academy has made me think a lot about teachers. Typically I would like the classes with the subjects I like or if I liked a teacher but I didn't actually think about if that teacher was a good teacher or not.. My class has made a big list of what makes a good teacher good and I've really learned a lot this year that I never even thought about. Kindof looking forward to college in a way and what it will bring even though I don't really like school now.

Amazing Day!!!! :D

2010-01-14T21:02:00.005-05:00

I have not written a blog in so long! Christmas vacation was good. Then, started school and this week had finals. I thought this week was gonna be really stressful but then today was a really good day!! Tuesday I had a Teacher Academy test and felt like I did pretty good on it. I started some exams Tuesday and then Wednesday and today. I got an A on all of them :D. I haven't found out about my Algebra II one but I don't care if I got an A on that one or not. I just felt really accomplished after freaking about everything. Then at my internship which I haven't talked about yet.. my Teacher Academy teacher and I just talked for a couple of minutes she asked if I spent a lot of time studying for my test and I said yeah kinda. She said I was the only one in my class to get an A on it. Another thing to make me happy.

I started my 3rd internship last week its with 5th grade. Language Arts. I definitely knew 1st grade was too young and I liked 4th grade and now I like 5th grade. I'm thinking I'm leaning more towards middle school though because when I first start out I think it will be more overwhelming to have to have a lesson for every subject and everything. Then again, doing middle school I will be teaching the same thing over and over and that could be kind of redundant. They both have good and bad like everything I suppose. I'm going to 8th grade next and I actually had that teacher so that will be cool. Plus I will be sure by then what I want. I just hate the grade levels they have for the teaching licenses. Either K-3, 4-9 or 7-12. Why can't it be 3-8 or something like I would like :D? I'm just really glad I've gotten along with all the teachers I've interned with and just made the experience even better. I had no idea what to expect and it has definitely been better than I expected. Theres a lot of work but in a sense it is preparing me for college because that's how that's going to be.

I am hanging with my besty today and I got the mail and after a long time of waiting I finally got my Patriarchal Blessing I was SO happy. I was really getting antsy waiting for its arrival! Then my friend took a shower and calls me in there saying we have a problem. I thought it was something stupid and she was kidding.. She broke the shower head off my shower!!! It was pretty much shooting straight out and with a lot of pressure. You can turn this little switch thing and it helps a little but it is so messed up.. Hard for me to take a shower.. I tried duct taping it but that didn't work out so well it just squirted in all directions.. I tried using a wrench because we actually have another shower head but I couldn't get it off.. Of course when something happens that I need my dad he's not here.. I was telling my friend she should be glad I'm in such a good mood today because I just think the whole thing is kind of hysterical. Just makes me think even more about always keeping a positive attitude because I've just been so happy today and I love it when its like that. So this time I'm gonna try harder to not focus on bad things that happen and remember what I have to be thankful for :) I hope I'm more successful this time but I'm gonna try :)

2010 Handbook

2010-01-08T20:15:00.000-05:00

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything..
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

MISSOURI!!

2009-11-27T21:43:00.004-05:00

It has been forever since I have posted a new post!!! Just read my last one to try to remember.. I have already started my second internship with 4th grade which just made me even more unsure what I want! I still have some time so I'm not freaking out about it. I still don't know about colleges either its getting to crunch time! uh oh..

I got my patriarchal blessing on the 15th that was good!! I can't wait til I get it in the mail so I can read it. You can't really catch everything as he's saying it. I caught some good stuff though ;).

Then, tuesday I left with my dad, aunt & uncle and their two kids and my grandma we're in Missouri now. 13 hour drive. It could've been worse though so I'm not complaining :)

On thanksgiving we ate and everything and then at 4 when to Silver Dollar City that's in Branson. We went last year I like it. They have some pretty cool stuff there and good food :D. I got some cute jewelry from there. I got this potato stuff though that everyone said was good I didn't like it.. It was potatoes and sweet potatoes mixed.. It made it too sweet and weird.

Today we went to Bass Pro Shops. The main one is here and its huge! I got some clothes from there. Wasn't so interested in the hunting part of it though.. My dad likes that part of it. We kind of split up and he was like freaking cause he didn't see me the whole time we were there til we met up again :) There is usually a ton of people but it was pretty bad today! That would be why I don't go shopping on black friday cause theres a million people out! I like shopping in moderation. Under 3 hours at a time!

Hmm. what else? I'm heading back to Ohio saturday during the night some time I think.. Don't really want to go back.. I like it out here. My aunt was telling me about a college that's out here College of the Ozark's or something like that. You work there so then you don't have debt or anything which is pretty cool! Plus no drinking or smoking etc. on the campus so another plus :) I might check that out. It's only like 40 minutes from my family in Missouri. I could still be away from home but close to some family at the same time.

2009-10-29T17:32:00.002-04:00

Well nothing new has really happened lately.. Last Saturday I took my ACT. That was super fun!!!! Just anxious to see how I did! I have to wait 5-8 weeks. So I guess I’ll see then. My first internship is over next week. I can’t believe it’s been 5 weeks already!! This year has gone by so fast. I taught my lesson today. I have to teach one at each internship. For this one we went on a nature walk and they had to think about their 5 senses while we were on it. Then we made a web and they had to write in their journals. I think I should’ve written complete sentences in the web though because they were having some problems making the words I gave them into sentences.. It took a lot longer than I expected too. It didn’t go bad though. I pretty much know I don’t want to teach that young though hah. I’m doing 4th grade next and I think that will be cool. I know a lot of the kids because I helped some of their specials last year. Plus they’re older and I don’t think I want to teach below 4th grade which is good because there’s a teaching license for 4th-9th grade which is what I’m thinking about now. There is also one that’s 7th-12th but I don’t know if I want to teach high school or not.. Ha still not sure. I still have this year to think about it though, so that’s good! I just totally don’t feel like a senior at all and I definitely don’t feel like I’m about to be graduating and going off to college ahhH! Soo much to think about. That’s pretty much all that’s new though :)

First Internship

2009-10-08T19:25:00.005-04:00

Well, I started my internships last wednesday. It's been really good and I enjoy it! I helped out in the elementary last year and went down to 3rd grade. I'm doing 1st grade now. They're really cute and everything but maybe a little too young for me. I did like the 3rd grade though they're a little older and follow directions better and everything like that. My next internship is in the 4th grade I found out about the teacher today and the teacher I'm with now said she's a good teacher. So, that's good :) She brings her daughter to Grand Valley and can choose the teachers she's gonna have in elementary. I was like well you're lucky! My teacher for Teacher Academy came in today and we talked for a little bit. Then the class was writing in their journals so she said she'd let me get back to helping them. So, then she starting talking with the teacher I'm interning with it was pretty awkward.. Ha. So, once they were done talking my teacher from the JVS left and when I was walked past her I said well you guys talking is pretty weird! She laughed and said I know! Then she said they weren't talking about anything bad. Which I'm hoping she was telling the truth :D

It's just like unreal that I'm a senior this year! It doesn't even feel like I am! This year has been going by pretty fast surprisingly! Some days seem like they're going by slow, but in the long run it has gone by really fast. Going down to the elementary is the highlight to my day :) So, it's made some days better :) It was so cute today though because I walk through the cafeteria to get to the class I'm going to. & some kids from the class I'm in waved at me and then kids I didn't even know were waving at me. Ha I was like someone famous just walking by them waving at everyone :D

I'm just still not quite sure which grade I want to do yet. I'll figure that out by the end of the year though.. Then I still I have to decide college and everything hmm. I'm just gonna miss all the kids I meet and everything. I'm already thinking about that part.. :( Oh, another fear I talked about today is that my first class I have when I become a teacher will be like too much to handle or something.. Makes me a little nervous. I guess it's somewhat similar to other jobs because you may not get a long with people at your job but this is still different because I'll be the one in charge and have to find a way to make everything work. Ha, I'm content now with working with somebody not so much by myself all the time. I think once you've been a teacher for a couple years it's easier because you have your lessons figured out and everything, but I'm gonna have to figure all that stuff out. I should focus on the good though, so I'm gonna keep that in mind :)

Good day ;)

2009-09-24T19:15:00.003-04:00

Today was pretty good :D I got to meet the first teacher that I'm going to be interning with. Plus the class sortof they just said hi to me. The teacher seemed nice though and now I'm really excited! Next wednesday is the first day! I'll have 11:30-12:40 then have to go down there but then I have to stay til 3:25.. Oh well atleast I'll get all my work done before I go home! I saw my choir teacher that switched this year to do elementary til she retires. I couldn't take choir this year anyway.. Interms go out this week I'm not getting any haa :D In english we have this fairy tale project which I'm interested to see how that goes. We're doing rumplestiltskin or however its spelled.. I never heard of it until now when we have to act it out.. Hopefully that goes well.. My last day at work is this saturday.. I wish I didn't even have to go then but I owe my manager. It's just super slow lately and I'd like to get another job I just really don't have the time if I want to get school done.. Plus with me not really knowing whats in store for the rest of the year and internships and everything. Some will be at a little different time but should be over at 3:25.. Oh well my dad said I didn't need a job now he'll see haa. I'll be glad to be able to do whatever on the weekends now! It was horrible just having to work all weekend!

Oh haa I just remembered. I'm at my moms now and she always liked to borrow my clothes which I didn't like so much and she wore one pair and at work she got a hole in them. Then we were just talking about what it looks like when she sews a hole and that its only been when she's wearing my pants that she cuts her leg with a razor knife (not bad) Hahaha so I told her that my pants wanted my legs back :D thought it was funny hehe

Stressed!!

2009-09-16T21:46:00.003-04:00

Well it's pretty ironic that I've been stressing out lately and then in 2 classes we were talking about it. I was reading all the symptoms and looked at my friend jokingly and was like hey I think theres a good chance I'm stressed! Only part is to change it which isn't very easy.. I get home and just don't feel like doing all the work I have. I'm tired and just want to go to sleep. I did choose teacher academy on the spur of the moment, but want to do it because I need to figure out what I want to do. Its getting overwhelming all the work in there plus the other classes I'm taking. I'm totally not disciplined because I'm totally not used this to this much work. Everyone says that thats how college is, but I'm not in college yet.. Guess I just need to get used to it and suck it up.
Today was fun. Went to my aunts and hung out there. Then went to a cook off. There were 4 groups we had to make a dessert pizza and a regular pizza. Then make up a team name & a name for the pizzas it was fun! We were the bakin' babes ;) ha. Both of our pizzas were pretty good! We didn't win though.. :( Oh well I don't really care anyway. The dough we used is totally not like Domino's hah I wasn't very successful.. I was telling everyone I should have brought dough in, but they said it was cheating haha. Today was good though cause I got to see some people that I haven't seen in a while! Ha like Sister Allen!!! So, we had to get a picture of course :D

I'm getting ready to go to sleep I'm really tired! Going to church tomorrow then have 2 essay's to write and some other homework. Plus my talk is next sunday have to make it good :D Temple trip is next sunday too. There is a college fair at Lakeland sunday at noon. I might go not sure I'd have to leave church way early.

Beginning of School

2009-08-27T20:27:00.003-04:00

Well school started on tuesday. And not to my surprise I couldn't really sleep monday night.. so I was a little tired.. :) School went good it was the usual first day. I already knew all the teachers I had and had them before. My schedule changed since I was taking teacher academy at the JVS. I was only able to take 5 classes to get there on time. Which made it so I couldn't take Trig and had to take Algebra II over again. I guess I don't really care about that that much because I know I totally slacked last year. So hopefully I learned from that :D I also wasn't able to take french II because it was only later in the day. So I took two years of spanish and one of french.. Besides that the first day at Grand Valley went pretty smoothly.

So now my new schedule is:

Personal Development/Resource management

English Lit Com

Psychology/Sociology

Algebra II

Am Govt/Economics

After that I headed to the Jvs. I was somewhat nervous about that because I didn't know what to expect or anyone that would be there. Now there are 8 people in our class. Our teacher is really nice and this is going to be her last year. So, now we're meeting at the JVS everyday until september 30th and then only on mondays and tuesdays for the rest of the year. Wednesday to friday we're doing internships at our schools. We have 6 total and they're about 5 weeks each or so and you have to plan a lesson for each. I already have some experience from last year going down to help the 3rd graders so I'm not too worried about that.

I've been undecided as to what I wanted to do and then when my teacher called me it just felt right so here I am! It kindof brought me down that my friend started laughing and saying I could never be a teacher. (well I was laughing too) She said that I have no patience and I would punch a kid and get fired. Haha well I totally don't think its that extreme!! I have to give myself props I've never punched anybody before and I definitely wouldn't do it to a kid! Everyone has their goals to accomplish and mine has always been to have more patience so what better way to do that? Plus I'm usually good at hiding it and not freaking out :) I haven't decided what grade or class or anything, but that's the point of the internship. Right now I'm considering 7th or 8th grade reading, or junior high history. Guess I will see what I think when I am finished. Haha it was so funny I asked my 1st period teacher when seniors last day was. She laughed and said they didn't know yet but she would let me know. She said I was planning for the future I was like Yeah!!! :) Counting down already!! :D Gonna try to miss less days this year.

quotes I've found that I like

2009-08-15T10:04:00.002-04:00

-The geat blessing of mankind are within us and within our reach; but we shut our eyes, and like people in the dark, we fall foul upon the very thing we search for, without finding it.

-Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine.

-Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me.

-The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

-Lifes to short for what used to be, or could've been.

-life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass.. it's about learning to dance in the rain

-Make Love not War

-You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone has a problem with it.

-When your forced to stand alone, you realize what you have in you.

-Never make somebody your everything, cause when they're gone then you've got nothing.

-Dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today..

-Don't go to bed angry when you can stay up and plan your revenge

-Stand for something; or you'll fall for anything

-If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?

-True friends now how bad you feel even if your fake smile fools everyone else

-Best friends are family that you choose

-PMS= Pass My Shotgun ;)

-You never know how strong you are.. Until being strong is the only choice you have.

- Some of the greatest things in life are unseen, thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, and dream..

-I'm a lover not a fighter, but I'll fight for what I Love

-I'm sugar and spice and everything nice, but if you wanna mess with me you better think twice - Believe in yourself and all that you are Know that there is something inside of you that is greater than any obstacle

- Just think-- In a few years, these will be the "good old days"

-Be who God created you to be, not who the world wants to see.

- Embrace those who love you and whom you love, and rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.

-Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. Smile Bigger. Love Longer.

summer is ending!

2009-08-14T23:07:00.002-04:00

Bad idea to type a blog now because I keep spelling things wrong so hopefully it won't be too bad!! I cannot believe how fast this summer went by its crazy! I didn't do anything that interesting but it was still good. Working definitely helped fill up my schedule.. In a good and bad way. Everyone said, well if you didn't have a job you wouldn't have money. When I think about well then I wouldn't have had money to spend so I wouldn't have right? Oh well. I guess I will be working somewhat during the school year too. Depending on how busy they are. They hired 4 people this summer and one was fired, another one was only there for the summer, and I have dibs over the person that's there. I'm pretty torn there.. I already don't like school so I'd like all the free time I can get ;) My manager is taking a vacation so it will definitely be weird without her. I'm working a lot the next two weeks. I work the first day of school and then all that weekend. ew, but then I'll be 17!!! Hopefully I don't work on my birthday.. Then labor day weekend going to WV for a family reunion. Be good to get out of OH I've been trying to all summer but couldn't decide where. Now its too late.. I totally don't feel like I'm about to be a senior. I'm so undecided about everything. I just need to figure out what I want to do already! Oh, today was interesting at work. We actually got pretty busy. Which I prefer over being slow that so boring. Well my boss came in so my manager went on a run because the other guys weren't back yet. So, that left me with my boss pretty weird and intimidating haa. I told my manager thanks when she got back and she just laughed at me. haa.

I have a new favorite song. Its If today was your last day by Nickelback.
My best friend gave me the best advice He said each day's a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If Today Was Your Last Day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? If today was your last day Against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the prize is always worth the fight Every second counts 'cause there's no second try So live like you'll never live it twice Don't take the free ride in your own life If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart? You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes 'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life Let nothin' stand in your way Cause the hands of time are never on your side If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would you live each moment like your last? Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have? Would you call old friends you never see? Reminisce of memories Would you forgive your enemies? Would you find that one you're dreamin' of? Swear up and down to God above That you finally fall in love If today was your last day.

The lyrics are amazing too! Its on my playlist.

Camp

2009-07-31T21:00:00.005-04:00

Well where to start! Our theme was Oh, the places you'll go. From the doctor Suess book. I have plenty of places I would like to go! BYU, be married in the temple, another country and many others, but that had me thinking a lot about where I would like to go. Plus we made envelopes for our patriarchal blessings. Which was ironic because I've been wanting to get mine. So.. when I do I will have a pretty envelope to put it in :D

Camp started on monday for me. We went to Kent State main and we were working on team work and cheering each other on. They had a rope to climb, a ladder, and a plank that had steps all around it. I did the last one and made it to the top. Then we also climbed a rock wall. I got to the middle and I couldn't reach the next one. I missed it, and wanted to quit, but everyone said I could do it. & sure enough when I started going up again I got to the top. I was pretty nervous about it, but it was still really fun!

Then everyone came on tuesday. I was over 1st years (12 year olds) They were all cute! It rained, but luckily the tent I was in didn't get too wet. I'm getting the days mixed up so I'll just not say the days. We had a lady come talk to us and she had a little slide show she was really amazing. Talking about her family and the trials they have been through and how temples have really come a long ways. Wish I could remember her name, but she was still soo good. We went paintballing which I didn't want to go. I didn't want hurt, or to hurt someone else.. We shot rifles and I did that ;) I got the bulls eye.

I think that thursday was by far the best day, and most spiritual. President Kirk came and talked to us. He read us a list he wrote for his daughter of things that would help her know him better. So he gave everyone a piece of paper to do the same with four categories. I didn't get much done, but this is what I put. Well I can't believe I can't find it.. I must have left it :( Well I guess I will do it again.

LOVE:

* The gospel and all its brought me.

* My family and friends.

* People that can always make me happy.

* Visiting new places.

* Visiting people I haven't seen in a long time.

* A nap after a long day.

* A good book on a slow day.

* Chocolate covered oreos.

TOLERATE:

* People that view things differently.

DETEST:

*People that eat with they're mouth open/ don't have manners.

* People that argue and don't listen to the other side.

* Laziness

* People that try to be something they're not.

AVOID:

* People that will bring me down.

* Places I know I shouldn't be.

* Some parties.

* Uncomfortable situations.

After he talked we had a testimony meeting. That was definitely emotional for a lot of people! I usually don't cry so I wasn't so happy that I did, but I totally couldn't help it. Crying in public is not my thing, but we were around a fire so a lot of people couldn't see me. Cassandra W. started talking about them moving and everything. I'm so sad about that :( Then when she was done and we were both crying she smiled at me and nudged me to go. Sandra D. already went so I was like I better. It was good. Everyone did a good job on their testimonies! I was nervous about being a leader (YCL) and meeting a bunch of new people, but it really wasn't bad. Everyone got along and people made new friendships. I just love any church activity like camp because you're just around with people that believe the same thing, and you don't get that often. All of the leaders did an amazing job and I love them all! I will totally miss a lot of people, but I got some numbers and finding people on facebook. All in all it was a good week and strengthened me to be able to step out of my comfort zone.

Okay, and now I'm gonna write our amazing song for this year written by Sister Allen.

The path we follow in this life, leads to the path that we will follow in the next. So listen to the voice that speaks to you, leadining you, giving you safe passage. This world's a frightening place at times, you may feel all alone walking down this road. Keep moving forward, don't despair, the Lord is always there, you'll know where to go.

Chorus: Oh, the places you will go! Oh, the things you will achieve, you will succeed! Oh, the mountains you will climb, there's no sky that is too high for you to reach.

These are the chapters of your life, they are filled with joy and strife, you just keep moving on. You are steadfast, immovable and strong, piercing the darkness like a Brilliant Dawn! Chorus... Today is your day! You are off and you're away, any way you choose! You know what you know, and you'll decide where to go and what's not for you! Chorus.. Your mountain is waiting, so get on your way! Your mountain is waiting, today is your day! Girl, you will move Mountains!

I totally love that song and the person that wrote it! Its amazing!!!!

Good Weekend! :D

2009-07-12T20:32:00.004-04:00

Well last Thursday started off with going to Ravenna and going to the Happy Day School to paint murals. It was cool everyone working together. There was A LOT to paint!! Here is a picture of the part I was working on, an alphabet train.

Then Friday morning we left for Palmyra NY. The bus ride took forever to get there! I hate having to ride for a long time.. :( Then we stopped at a rest stop in Angola. They had a Mcdonalds and everything. Well they’re totally a rip of and Wayy more expensive then everywhere else. So heads up not to go there. It was funny I started talking about it and my manager knew right where I was talking about. Once we got there we went to the bookstore where they printed the book of mormon. It’s interesting that it took so long to do everything. They had to put little letters and put so many in and then put that on the paper and keep doing that. So hopefully they didn’t mess up because it looked really time consuming! Then they had to print all the copies after that, and then the binding and all that kind of stuff. We went to the Sacred Grove where Joseph received his first vision. So we walked around there for a while. I was with one other girl and we were trying to find how to get back out haha. I was smart and asked a lady and she had a map. Oh yeah :) I looked at it and was like well where are we? So she pretty much told us how to get out. It was pretty funny that the whole time my friend that I was walking with was like that’s where he received the vision and kept changing it ha. This is a picture of us on the way there. You can somewhat see how shirts they say, "stand as a witness"

We didn’t have enough time to see the cabins and everything. I don’t know when I’ll go back but I’ll definitely go see that stuff! Then later on that day we went to see the pageant at the Hill Cumorah. I didn’t know what to expect at all, but it was amazing! They had the set already set up so it was interesting to see how it would play out. The lighting made it look different all the time. I was almost falling asleep, but I still enjoyed it. Once it was over we went to the visitors center to have a testimony meeting. I felt bad because more adults talked than youth so I got up. I was debating about it, which I always do! Then the bus ride home actually went by kinda fast only 5 hours. Of course then I wasn’t that tired. I knew I wouldn’t really be able to sleep. I got a little bit of sleep when I got home Saturday morning. Saturday evening I went to Debby Baker’s and she was having a little party. That was fun we ended up going to see fire works. I was happy about that because it’s been forever since I’ve seen any.. Church was good and then work went good too! Talked to my manager for a while. I’m glad that she is so nice and everything. We get along good and if I need to change days she does all that she can. I told her I’m scared what if my next manager is mean. Haha well I’m good for now anyway. I’ve just been in a good mood and I definitely like that!! Usually it doesn’t last long, but I’m trying to be positive :D Girls camp is coming up, and that will be fun too! Any chance to somewhat get away from the real world ends up being good!

Long Time!

2009-07-02T21:03:00.003-04:00

I've been thinking about writing a blog for a while, but I kept putting it off! I wrote a LONG one a while ago and then it got deleted so I got mad and didn't want to type another one. My summer has been going by really fast! I've been working a lot the past week. They hired two more people. I'm supposed to somewhat "train" them. I was thinking my manager was crazy I still mess everything up half the time. You live and you learn. Oh today for example I accidentially put alfredo sauce in the container for ranch. There wasn't a lot left so they just dumped it back out and didn't scrape it.. Yesterday I went on a three mile hike which wasn't bad at all.. I thought it would last forever. It didn't I had some people to entertain me :) Eww there were a bunch of dead mice though.. Oh and one that ran in front of us. Which by the way wasn't dead obviously ;) I hung out at my brothers before that. Just chilled. I really want to get a wii its fun! He doesn't have one but he has guitar hero and you can get that on wii too! I want to get my Wii sport age down. I think I'm still like 40. They always give me baseball which I suck at! I like bowling though :)

I'm now planning to try to have a positive attitude! It's actually not going half bad! Probably because no one has irritated me lately :D There was this quote that I Really Like! "Past problems are like a stream when you are standing on a bridge-the stream is rolling underneath you, and your problems have gone downstream. Regardless of how hard you try, you can;t change the past. What I want you to learn to do is look upstream. Watch for things that are coming down the river of life that you can change and control" Yeah I think that is amazing! I don't know whose talk that was and I don't feel like looking it up, but he had a lot of good things to say!! I also read some other ones. I'm coming to realize that I can't control everything or make everything go the way I want it to. I just need to learn to let things go. It is so hard though! I don't know why I obsess over things. A lot of the little things in life seem like big things to me I guess.. Like people lying about stuff or not doing what they say bothers me. How hard is it to tell the truth or do what you say you're going to? Some people take more than they recieve and I think it should at least be equal or give more than you recieve. I try to be a good person and I just don't understand how some people can be the way that they are.. I have the few people that I know I can trust, and then I have the people I'm not sure about but love anyway.

I'm glad that I found a job that all the people there are nice! A lot of the people are funny too! Its reassuring to not have someone get mad when you mess up because I definitely do! Everyone has their battles. Just have to conquer them and do what you think is right. Youth conference is next week I'm looking for an escape! Last year was fun and I'm sure this year will be too! I never really knew much about Palmyra and I just looked it up and read about some of the importances of it. So it should be a cool place to go and a learning experience. I still want to plan a road trip for the end of August I just have to think of a place to go! I've never stayed in a hotel before and I really want to! Plus one with a pool and hot tub or it wouldn't really be fun.. :D

Begininning of Summer

2009-06-07T19:53:00.002-04:00

Well.. nothing excited has happened since summer has begun. I hung out with my friend Rose after school thurs and got some A&W (I love that stuff) Now the rest of the summer will be mainly McDonalds cause its closer. Or of course pizza.. Yesterday and today sucked for working it was slow and I got sent home.. I hate that :( Unless I actually want to go home or have something to do.. So yesterday I went home and watched a movie all by my lonesome cause my dad was at a work party. Today I went to graduation because the choir was singing a song. It was pretty pointless to go, but I liked the song. Tomorrow I'm going to cash my check and see my aunt mitzi. It's been a while since I've seen her. I want to see my aunt that lives in Westlake too but that's a drive! Plus I would probably get lost hah. Who knows my dad might be working out there soon ;) He hates it, but I would like it!! That's what sucks about me having my license now I have to drive everywhere. Too much driving isn't fun..

I'm trying to think of what I want to go to college for.. A guy I work with was asking me if I knew what I wanted to do and I said no. He said I should be a pharmacist because they make good money. Doesn't sound to bad to me. Then I think I should've taken a science this year.. It doesn't ever count in college anyway so it doesn't really matter that much anyway. The guy at work is cool he's really smart and always has a bunch of stories. Seems like the kind of person that could do amazing at Jeopardy or something haha. I just want something that'll make good money that I won't have to get my doctorate for. I can't remember where the school was but he said there was a school for it by Akron I think and that I could do the first 2 years anywhere really. Hm, well not thinking too much now I'm sure I'll change my mind before then. I like to have options though!!

Oooh I started reading Twilight. I'm totally behind the bandwagon but whatever. Kindof hard to read two books at the same time when I was always reading one for english. I'm not very far yet to know if I like it or now. Kindof confused actually that Edward totally hates Bella and isn't coming to school anymore. I'll wait til it makes sense.. I also heard Angels and Demons was a good book. My chemistry teacher was reading it so I bought that too.

Work & School

2009-05-22T22:23:00.002-04:00

Hm so I thought it was time for another blog!! I just got home a while ago. I ended up working til 9:30 instead of 8. Which I don't really mind give me more hours :D I was going to go to this campsite with my brother but the pool closed at 9 so I'm just going there tomorrow before work. Ugh, work is annoying standing outside and having stupid people saying stupid things. This one guy though he had this black mustache thing and I was like why are you wearing a fake mustache? He was like oh you noticed? It was like duh you have blonde hair?! Didn't say that of course ;) He asked me how old I was I said 16(obviously he'd be buying haaha just kidding!!), he asked me if I wanted to go drink with him and his friends after work. I said no thanks, he said "you don't drink" I said no. Then as he was leaving he was like well were gonna be at I don't remember it'll be a good time. What a loser ha!! When he said you don't drink? I should've just been like no you're wearing a fake mustache freak! People are soo strange. Then inside I was asking how to get to the campsite thing my brother was at because I didn't have clue. Then someone I worked with what you going to drink? I was like I'm going to be with my brother. I don't remember what I said, but I was like I think I'm gonna pass. So then everyone basically got all in my business. Asking me this and that. It gets kindof annoying as if its their business. Whatever though all the people I work with are still cool. I'm learning new things every time about the food and stuff. Pretty much have it down besides the computer and phones. Well that's my interesting work life!!!

So now to the bomb threat that was made yesterday. Last year there was a person who made one which probably didn't think they would find out it was him! Our school has cameras and they figured out it was him. He got a felony on his record and a suspended from our school for a year. (which it wasn't a year) Then this 6th grader thinks that she is going to do it again?? Seriously how messed up is this you seriously need that day off? We have to make it up anyway. We just went in an hour late this morning. I just hate how stupid people are, and how little they think about things. School is just totally dragging on though its horrible! We don't do anything in half the classes which makes it worse because then the days feels twice as long. Just til June 4th!! I totally suck at Alg 2 and Chemistry I was so glad to hear that I have a middle C in both of them so I don't have to stress over that! I'm reading my last book for English that'll give me an A for the nine weeks & should be a B for the year or I'll have to hurry up and read another one before Friday. So my schedule for next year is as followed:

1. Personal Development/ Resource Management

2. Trig (not good ha)

3. Psychology/ Sociology

4. Study Hall

5. American Govt/ Economics

6. French II

7. Choir

8. English Lit Com

Yeah nothing is bad besides the Trig part. Its not required to take a Science so I wasn't going to :D I probably should have but I don't really care..

boring weekend.. :(

2009-05-02T20:55:00.002-04:00

So.. I haven't done much this weekend, and I can't believe it's already 9!! Yesterday I went from school to work. Worked 5 hours. Then I went to my moms, and took her to the e.r. this morning for bloodwork. Then I went home, and slept and not much of anything til I left for work today. I worked for 4 hours today, and sold 53 pizzas. OOO and the best part $4 tip haah. I just went to the gas station, and spent two of it on chips :D I got home at quarter after 8. Now I'm doing laundry, and have 3 loads cause I'm a procrastinator! I cleaned up my room cause everything is cluttered so it looks good now :) I'm gonna have a lot of clothes to put away though.. I didn't even put all the clothes away last time, so I had to fold and put those away. I always leave the stuff I hang up for last because that's the worst part!! I work 5 hours again tomorrow. Ughh this really sucks. I can't wait til the summer, and I won't have to work every weekend. I hope they don't fire the other girl so they'll have someone else to do it too.
Oh, but it kindof annoyed me today.. This middle aged lady drives by, and looks at me and says "Domino's Sucks" Seriously?? She fricken sounds like she's my age screaming something stupid out the window. People don't know how to just grow up it is so aggrivating. Ha well my first thought was you suck, but I'll do my job and not be immature like she was :)
haha and the guy that does the tickets for the drive-in came three times! The second time I didn't realize he came before, and he said I'll have the same thing as last time. I was selling medium pepperoni, and x-large brooklnn's. So i was like.. which one did you have? Then the 3rd time he said his buddies saw his pizza, and wanted some so he bought 2 more. I always feel bad when someones talking to you, but you can't quite understand them. The best part is when little kids go by and they wave at you! They're so cute :)

first job!!

2009-04-24T22:44:00.002-04:00

Soo.. I officially have a job :D Mhm at Domino's in Andover. Today was my first day, and it went pretty good. So you know how they have those $5 pizzas ready to sell outside? Yep that was me today. She thinks it looks lazy if you sit, so I stood there ha and smiled and waved at everybody. Plus I got a tan how nice is that? I worked 5 hours, and must have sold like 100 pizzas. They said I picked a good night cause it was busy. Oh, and they better be happy I contributed 9 of those pizzas cause I told people to come ha. I wanted to make sure I'd have some customers :) That wasn't a problem though. They ran out twice so people had to wait, but it was nice because that was my break. It was so funny though it wasn't an ambulance, but looked like it it was this medical thing and the guy was like they don't even give you a chair? I was like nope.. He was like dang!! I guess people aren't as evil as I thought most of the people that saw me waved, or smiled back. Then when they didn't I mumbled under my breath jerkk :) The manager was nice, and everyone seemed cool. I'm a little sad that I have to take off my nails though.. She said Idk what she called him, but a big important guy (ha) when he came to inspect they wouldn't get 5 stars if I have them. She said she could give me a heads up, but they would need filled soon anyway.. So hopefully I can get somewhere for them to take them off. It's so horrible doing it yourself!! Yet I continue to put myself through it. Not for a while if I'm lucky though :) I have a lot to learn though. I still have to learn all the stuff inside. Too bad I'm not a quick learner, but I guess not too bad.. It'll be alright I think. Tomorrow is the best of efy so I can't work then. I probably have to work Sunday afternoon though.

I took another book test & got a 90% on it so now I have two 90's and a 92. When I finish the book I have I'll have a B. I'd like to read at least another one after that though. Hopefully I'll still have some time left in my life ha. I told her I needed Wednesdays off, and Sunday for church, but it seems like I'll have to work some Sundays. Hopefully I can get days where I can actually do stuff. Only time will tell. I went to Wal-Mart not to long ago, and got some pants for work, and 2 tanks they were only $5 so why not? Mhm that was my eventful day :)

bipolar blog ha

2009-04-21T15:28:00.002-04:00

Well today was so oh so interesting :). I was getting gas, and thought that my tire was low so I was gonna go home and tell my dad. I went to Circle K and Jolene was there so we decided we'd go to the gas station to figure it out. There was already this lady there pumping up her tire so we asked her if she could show us, and she did so that was cool :D Now I know how I think I could've figured it out, but I wouldn't have known that the thing has a thing that tells how many lbs were in it. I still don't know how much my tires need but they look good to me. The ladies daughter was cute though it was funny. The lady said she showed her daughter that was in college how to do it cause you can't rely on a man (totally true!!) Ha and then the daughter was like yeah she's 19, but her boyfriends 20. It was funny I was like uh oh she's gonna tell your life story. The lady said she usually does. That's why little kids are funny they just say any, and everything.

Now to a sore subject I guess you could say.. I didn't really know much about Columbine until yesterday. All I've heard of was how they asked a girl if she believed in God, and she said yes and they shot her. We spent our world history class talking about it yesterday, and my teacher printed off info, and showed us a video. They killed 13 people 12 students, and one teacher. The teacher was in the process of getting as many students as he could out of the school. The 2 doing the killing planted a bunch of bombs everywhere, their house, car, in the school. Only half that they set up went off luckily. They had two propane bombs in the cafeteria that were supposed to go off, and kill 500 people! The one at their houses, and cars didn't go off. They found a journal from the one titled "I hate my Fing life" with the swear word of course ha. I can't remember all the things he said, but all the weird things he hates and everything. Usually people are kidding when they say they hate the world, but there is no doubt that these people weren't kidding about that. That's why schools take the precautions that they do. I'm beginning to understand that. Because when our new school was built there are cameras in the hallways, and lunchroom and nobody liked that. Our teacher told us we're one of the few schools that your just allowed to have all your bags with you. The two guys were wearing black trench coats and had duffel bags. It's just scary to think about that kindof stuff. Sure I get really mad at people and how stupid a lot of the world is, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna go kill everyone!! Well I guess that's my feelings on that subject

Okay this entry is going to be bipolar, but it's all good. I'm I finished the Book of Mormon last night I fell accomplished! Of course I've read plenty of books, but not any others that were as meaningful. Or took so long for that matter ha :) I started last summer probably if I would've read like I would've liked to I would've been done a while ago, but its good either way. I'm almost done with personal progress I'm gonna do a garden, and I have to finish this calendar thing I'm making it's hard to explain. Then one other little thing. Also another big thing I'm completing. Now I just want to get my book done for English ha I plan on getting that done by Friday, and taking the test.

This Week

2009-04-16T16:26:00.002-04:00

I'm totally realizing that my life is so boring. I need to plan stuff to do over the summer. Well this week surprisingly went by fast I didn't think it would since it was the first week back since vacation. I started a new book its kindof boring so far.. The last one I read was good, but the test was a little hard. It was about 4 kids and their mother disappeared and they didn't really know any of their family. They had to try to get place to place. It was good. At the end I was scared it wasn't going to end so happily, but it did so I'm happy ;) I'm not sure what I'm gonna think about the one I'm reading its Bean Tree's. Some people liked it, and some people didn't. Its only a little over 300 pages and easy to read so I don't really care. Then pigs in heaven comes after it so I'll read that next. Then I'll be guaranteed a B in English, but I want an A to make sure I have a B for the year.

Hm so on to what I've done this week. Tuesday I spent the night at Jolene's. We went to Wal-Mart so her cousin could get the new Metallica rock band. It's fun we played that a lot. Oh, and got good ol Micky D's while in Middlefield. Then yesterday I fell asleep, then went to mutual. It was girls vs. guys cook off. The guys won, but whatev no big deal ha. We made strawberry cupcakes, and they made a cocunut cake or something. Except my belly kinda hurt so I didn't eat a whole cupcake, and ofcourse now one would sound really good! I don't have much to do today.. I was gonna stay at Jolene's again, but I don't know I didn't feel like it. So now I just ate, and I'm watching Failure to Launch. I'll have to read some tonight, and see if I can get more of my calendar done. Except I can't get the yarn on the needle stupid thing. It's nice out today too. Too bad my dad had to work today I actually kinda feel like doing something.

I'm happy I'm finally understanding Chemistry :) I really don't like that class.. I have an Alg II quiz tomorrow I'll probably wake up early for study table I don't really get whats going on. It makes sense when he does it, but then when i go to do it it doesn't work out so well. Unfortunately I have to take a math next year, but luckily not a science :) So glad next year is my last year. In World History were cutting down the days only 35 left.

End of Spring Break.

2009-04-13T10:31:00.005-04:00

I did end up going shopping with my mom it was pretty interesting ha.. I was at my brothers that morning (fri) & headed to my house to get ready, and then to her house. A big surprise I got there and she hadn't even showered yet. My knee was really bothering me so I wasn't so happy about having to drive. We went to Warren to go to Wal-Mart to cash her check. Finally got my eyeliner cause mine was like gone. Then we were on our way to Niles. She wanted to go to Sharon, but I said no way. Were almost to Niles & my moms like "where's the bag?" I was like I didn't get it & neither did she. So once we were done in Niles we had to go back to Warren to get it haa were a bunch of idiots! Especially since the day before my sister-in-law left her bag at the mall, and after I told them about Janet leaving her stuff in Erie. That makes me laugh every time even though its not funny :D I started working on this calendar thing I'm so glad my moms gonna help me. It only has to take 10 hours and it'd take me like 30. Sewing has never been my thing I get so impatient because something always has to mess up!!

I'm so glad I'm done editing this thing I hate editing stuff. Just did this & myspace so I'm good to go! Ha that's what I did at my aunts the past 2 weekends. Plus we played monopoly last weekend, and i whopped them all. I think the first time I played since I actually knew what I was doing. Then my niece was bragging on Easter that she beat everyone pretty funny. Easter was good I ended up waking up at 7 cause I had to pee so I was like whatev I'll get up now I guess. When I was ready:

I was almost ready, and thought my dad already showered.. nope. So had to wait for him too. My parents have that in common. :( I was so stuffed yesterday too many things to eat in such a short time hehe. There was this really good cake ha I had 3 pieces, but they were little pieces!! Makes me want to go get my Easter candy, I want chocolate now. Ugh its outside though I'm not getting out of my pjs today there's no reason ha. It's depressing having to go back to school tomorrow. I'm soo glad its almost over. I just remembered that I have two lab reports I didn't start & they're due wed. A lot of stuff to do tomorrow unfortunately.

Well I'm getting me a bubble bath when I'm done watching the pursuit of happiness. Oh and lovely laundry..

2009-04-09T23:51:00.000-04:00

I'm pretty irritated right now with the movie I just started watching.. I didn't like it at all. I didn't even want to finish it. I love Meryl Streep, but the story just sucked. Being about catholic priests taking advantage of little kids it just disgusts me! I just don't understand how there can be that screwed up of people in the world and that they could get those positions, and then claim that they speak for god. How can you do that when your not an example of him. Giving the whole faith a bad name, and making it so other people have to go out of their way trying to make sure that the same thing won't happen. Everyone knows a tiny portion of something and think they know everything when half the time they don't even know what they're talking about. People only focus on the bad of things. It made me think a lot about it.

Well, on a better note its spring break! It was pretty good I played monopoly the first time since I actually know how to play it. It's silly how with the simple of things you learn lessons. I wasn't doing good & I was about to say I was done. Then I started progressing, and I actually won. I give up on things way to easily, and make them seem like they're impossible. My new goal :)

Then I hung out with Jen & Jolene, and then went home & did some cleaning. Not the thing I really want to do, but I'm trying to accept that too. Not the best at doing that though because I'll argue that up and down. Last night I stayed the night at my brothers and I'm here now was gonna go home, but then I got tired. Gonna spend time with my mom tomorrow not for sure what were gonna do yet I guess she said go shopping so that should be cool. Well that's all the updates.

New grading period.

2009-03-23T15:32:00.000-04:00

Well today has made me happier :) I got a C in Alg 2 I was so nervous good thing he's nice! I def need to try harder for the next 9 weeks. I got an A in Advanced foods hopefully get an A in there for the year. Still haven't gotten my grade for french yet. I'm almost on page 100 of my book hopefully I can read 6 pts worth of books, but that will be a lot.. I'll find the easiest one maybe? :) I'm still thinking of what I'd like to go to college for any suggestions? My dads trying to tell me I'll make a lot of money driving a dump truck I'm like uh no.. Makes me feel manly, and I don't want to do that anyways.
My weekend kinda went by fast so that was sad.. Saturday was really annoying but Chas made it all better :D Fireproof was a really good movie movies with a purpose are always better! If only that could work for everyone I can't remember what the thing is, but they should send that to everyone that gets married and maybe it'd work more. Its so annoying when people get married for the wrong reasons. Have respect for yourself & what you want. I'd rather be single forever then be with the wrong person hopefully that doesn't happen cause that totally wouldn't be cool ha ;) Everyone always says learn from other peoples mistakes I'm good with that. I think learning from your own are just as important. Search for whats truly important not petty things that don't mean anything in the end.
Yep :)

Trying to sum things up.

2009-03-19T12:27:00.000-04:00

Well where should I start. Well you should know the names Jessica I'm 16 going on 25. I only wish :). I'm a junior right now, and I don't think it could be going by any slower right now. I've been talking to everyone and it seems like everyone is getting senioritis wayy to early. Tomorrow is the end of the 3rd nine weeks. I wish I was doing better. I'm thinking about not going into trig next year because Math really isn't my best subject. I like the teacher though so I may stick it out just be more determined. I think it'll be good Rose probably won't be in my class next year cause she distracts me I need to be a loner :). I'm not taking a science class not required yay. I'm taking chemistry this year, and I am really hoping I won't ever need to know it. Science has never interested me. On the other hand I like history because it won't change what you know will always be compatible. English isn't to bad either as long as I find a good book to read. I found some that I didn't like very much this 9 weeks so that didn't make things all that great. Well that's all about school for now.
Now The Move! Its been kinda stressful having to do things so quickly my dad just wanted to be in at the beginning of the month.. For the most part everything is pretty settled. Hardest part is the random things that never really had a place from the begin with.. My dad can take care of those :D. I'm just nice like that. My room is pretty good though. I have a bunch of stuffed animals that were in this holder thing I'm just gonna put them all on my closet shelf & everything else should look pretty situated in there. The distance is kinda getting to me if I wasn't in the middle of nowhere before I definitely am now! 20 minutes to school, and I have really figured out the distance to church its not that different from before, but that's because I like to go 70 on 11. ;) Not so bad..
I'm bummed cause my bf got a job, and we can't hang out much now. I need to find a job too and then we definitely probably couldn't figure things out around our schedules.. I've never really been into sports, and I'm starting to thing that's a bad thing not to be in any extracurriculars for college.. Another thing that has been weighting down my mind a lot lately. Where would be the best for me & where I really want to go, but how it'll all work out in the end. I'm trying not to worry about it so much because whats supposed to happen will. I have a hard time questioning and doubting things I can't think I know this will happen in the future because there is still that unsurety. There are also things I know will always be in my life because I won't settle for them not to be its just the matter of getting to that point. I can be very hardheaded and what I want is what I want. I will take the time to listen to others opinions, but if its not in my plan or what I want to hear it probably won't stay with me. Then there are those I love to death whose opinion I will never push away because I know they know what I want, and what is good for me. & I thought this would be hard to just write away :). This is goood!
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